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How do you see Jon?
33% - Dementedly Funny
27% - Butt Ugly
22% - Annoyingly Intelligent
16% - Yummy...*drool*


Fall '04 Classes:

BA 105
BA 106
Econ C110
Econ 182
Tennis
Resistance Training

Da Piggy's Deep Thoughts Archive

      Alright... you might wonder wat the heck is a deep thoughts archive... wella... it begam as am archive of Jon's Deep Thoughts from my AIM profile... cuz i would be always changing my profile every few days... but some people might not have gotten the chance to read the blurbs... so i figured... hey... why not just archive 'em on my homepage... ain't i so innovative?... haha... but yea... it also letz me remember wat i've written before as well... so yupz... datz basically wat this page is here for...and then eventually i decided to write directly to it instead of on my profile...cuz writin' directly gives me more space...so yea...

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December 1, 2004 10:19 PM
      Today i played a cruddy game of basketball...i need more conditioning...

December 1, 2004 3:48 PM
      I'm emotionally retarded...i can't get over someone who i hardly talk to and who most likely doesn't like me...itz not from lack of trying to move on...trust me...i tried...but i was sittin' doin' a group project one day...and then sjy walks in...and the whole thing comes rushin' back...it so sucks...i don't want to like her...but i do...and that's jus' so stupid...and it makes me act stupid too...

November 30, 2004 3:00 PM
      Hi...im tired...i want to play Maple Story...but i can't...because im at a computer in Haas, since I have a class later at 3:30...Maple Story is a fun game...you should play it too...itz free...download at www.mapleglobal.com
      I wanna put my head down and sleep...but i dun wanna give up control of this computer...if i put my head down...someone will ask me if they could use the computer...and then i would have to say yes...but i dun want to give it up even tho i want to sleep...this sounds completely irrational...it must be due to the lack of oxygen in my brain because i want to sleep...did u kno that when ur body becomes very dehydrated...u become irrational as well? I learned that today in my organizational behavior class...we were doing a desert survival simulation...it was fun...if ur in the desert...dun take salt tablets...it will kill u...and u can make a small water supply by digging a hole and putting a raincoat in it...cool stuff...
      I love the screaming toy...u whack it and it screams...its funny...my sister and my mom found it in our house...we dun kno where it came from...it was in a black box when they found it...wat a funny toy...the screams sound real...imagine if a small kid had that toy growing up...man...how messed up would they be...itz like...here lil' kid...learn to smack things and make them scream...wat a demented childhood...
      Itz cold in Berkeley...this morning it was 37 degrees...high at 51 degrees...too bad itz not snowing yet...that would be super cool...then i can throw snowballs...ooh...maybe we can build a snowman on the parking lot in front of the student center...that would be uber cool...
      I sound delirious right now...maybe i am...im tired...i think funny things when im tired...maybe i should be a standup comic...but everytime i go on stage...i'd have to not sleep for the past like 36 hours or sumtin'...that would interesting...but then i would have huge bags under my eyes...not that i dun have those already...i have bags under my eyes...did i tell u that yet? i think i did...whee...
      Vicky next to me is being productive and doing some homework related stuff...i think thatz wat it looks like...im not being productive...im typing in this journal...im typing random thoughts...i like my sweater...it keeps me warm...itz a nice sweater...yay for nice sweaters...so stylish...yah...very...
      I used to have a pencil case once...but now i dun...why do you need a pencil case...do you really need that many different writing things?...doesn't a pencil and a dark pen suffice...and u can throw in a big eraser and whiteout and u should be complete for ur writing needs...so why do you need a bag? ok fine...we can also add a highlighter...u dun need a bag for 3 writing things and 2 accessories...maybe itz jus' for the sake of having bags...girls like bags for some reasons...i like being a guy...i dun need bags...i can put my wallet in my pocket...and my phone in my pocket...and everything in my pocket...but i guess sometimes girls need bags...because u can't put pockets on skirts...and dresses...being a guy is great...we dun need to wear skirts and dresses...that would be ridiculously cold for this kind of weather...
      Ok...i think that's enuff writing for now...

November 23, 2004 12:31 AM
      Today i saw a raccoon clan of three when i was coming home at night from school...it was cool...i would of taken pictures with my camera phone...but it doesn't come with flash...i would of also tried to carry them home...but im afraid of rabies...
      Yay for G-mail...i dun use it...but it increases competition in the free mail provider industry...which means my hotmail has been increased from a measley amount of space to 250MB with more file attachment size too...cool stuff...
      I love how i got a free chiropractic appointment worth $20 for merely spending 5 minutes networking the doctor's computers...hahahaha...so great...if i do that all the time...that's like making $240 an hour...such cool stuff...

November 13, 2004 12:18 AM
      I seem to be writing these things around twelve these past few times...sometimes i feel like writing stuff...but it takes too long to write...and sometimes i jus' forget...
      I feel so not on top of things...i feel like i dun have too much extra time...but i do...i think itz cuz there's so many gaps...i dun have a lotta solid blocks...
      I wonder if this is a current phase...but i feel maybe a lil' socially and academically inadequate...maybe itz all in my head...cuz even tho i feel stupider as i grow older...i somehow manage to pull a's still...and in one class...i snatched one out of the only three a's given for a midterm...
      There's this really annoying guy in one of my classes...he makes such narrow-minded, idiotic remarks...the whole class thinks he's pompous and stupid...but somehow i dun think he gets it...and then i wonder...wat if im jus' like him...and i dun realize that people may actually think im a mean-spirited, arrogant, condescending, yet sophomoric fool...

November 9, 2004 12:39 AM
      Thank you so much everyone who signed the brown paper card...i am immensely touched...to come home and see that so many people care...
      And a big round of applause for my sister Sheri who pulled it off...i am very impressed...wow...now that is an enormously thoughtful gift...and she baked a huge pig too...which she will help me eat of course...or else i wouldn't be able to finish it by the end of the semester...
      And thank you Cando, Debby, Doug, Irene, Tina for spending the night with me even on such short notice of a dinner...i really appreciate all your friendships...i really do...
      And thank you to everyone who also wished me a happy birthday...thank you all...

November 8, 2004 12:18 AM

      Sandy the camel has...5 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...5 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...5 humps...
      Go, Sandy, Go!
      Boom boom boom...

      Sandy the camel has...4 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...4 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...4 humps...
      Go, Sandy, Go!
      Boom boom boom...

      Sandy the camel has...3 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...3 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...3 humps...
      Go, Sandy, Go!
      Boom boom boom...

      Sandy the camel has...2 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...2 humps...
      Sandy the camel has...2 humps...
      Go, Sandy, Go!
      Boom boom boom...

      Sandy the camel has...1 hump...
      Sandy the camel has...1 hump...
      Sandy the camel has...1 hump...
      Go, Sandy, Go!
      Boom boom boom...

      Sandy the camel has...no humps...
      Sandy the camel has...no humps...
      Sandy the camel has...no humps...
      Sandy is a...horse!

      I'm 21...think of that...

November 4, 2004 6:48 PM

Dear Diary,
      I'm tired. Somehow marketing briefs always end up stretching till 5 in the morning...even if i started on it a week in advance this time...it must be a curse...
      The day after the election seemed to be kinda anti-climatic...you would think people would be making a bigger deal of it...the Republicans did completely swept the election...but no...itz as if nothing had happened...maybe California is jus' sulking...
      Its cold and my skull is pulsing...and i feel physically dysfunctional...
      Yay...retreat is this weekend...
      Yay...next week should be fun...or at least very interesting...and perhaps entertaining to my friends as well...

October 28, 2004 11:58 PM

Dear Diary,
      Today, tina physically abused me again...i was drinking my Snapple Pink Lemonade (which tastes too artificial...no good)...when she smacked the bottle causing it to hit my mouth and cause bleeding...i am a living testimonial of her violent ways...
      In other news...i am eating my dinner right now...yea...at midnight...it consists of two peices of toast and five baby pickles...hmm...sounds like five loaves and two fish...interesting...

October 25, 2004 12:06 AM

Dear Diary,
      Today I was physically assaulted in a dark room...
      by Tina...
      it wasn't pretty...those nails went away with peices of my skin...

October 19, 2004 12:09 AM
      I saw my chiropractor today...she diagnosed me as chronically fatigued...then she gave me a bedtime of 10 PM...hahahahahaha...itz like elementary school again...or was it also junior high...i forget...at least elementary tho...
      Do you know that whoosh feeling in ur chest when someone unexpectandly walks into the room?...i do...makes u lose focus on ur task for a few moments...

October 15, 2004 12:59 AM
      Today I saw squirrels climbing trees...and i got inspired...so 10 minutes later...i climbed the tree outside of Birge Hall...i was gonna lie down on the branch...but i seem to have a fear of heights when there's no safety support...so i didn't...i even felt precarious sitting down...so i stood up instead to let my sneakers provide traction to the branch...it was funny...when Cando and Tina came out of their legal studies class...they saw and me and freaked...and were like..."omg Jon...we sooo do not know u"...and i laughed...hahaha...
      I haven't been able to watch any of the debates live...but i did view all three of them, plus the vp debate, afterwards on MSN...Kerry is a good debater...and i was disappointed that Bush didn't quite seem to measure up in debatidy (i jus' made up that word to express a person's finesse at debates)...however...as much as I was impressed with Kerry...im still gonna vote Republican...now if this was the Republican primaries and Kerry was running on the Republican ticket, i'd vote for him over Bush...but he's not...so im voting Bush...now at this point, many readers might express intense dissatisfaction at my choice or dismiss me as ignorant or even perhaps suggest that I may be a stupid loser...which is all fine...that's their opinion of me...
      So why Bush?...im worried how he hasn't been very fiscally conservative...but he's Republican...and thatz a brand that influences a lot of his decisions...such as tax cuts...i dun agree with a rollback of tax cuts...according to economic theory...people have a propensity to smooth consumption...look at the two period consumption model...C1+C2/(1+r)=Y1+Y2/(1+r)...a reduction in tax cuts increases Y1 today...however...if consumers do not believe Y2 tomorrow will also increase...then they will save more of the tax cut to smooth out the bonus consumption between today and tomorrow...so the impact of the tax cut on consumption today is less...but if they believe that the tax cut is permanent...then they will consume more of the extra disposable income...because they know tomorrow they can also consume at the same level...
      What about social issues such as abortion...now this is a hotly contested topic...well...i agree on choice...but i also agree on life...i don't think either extremes work...though i don't know how much to compromise...it depends on at what stage of pregnancy does one determine the fetus to be a living human being...at one extreme, perhaps a fertilized embryo in the early stages is merely a fertilized embryo...i believe it should be one's choice at that point whether to have an abortion...on the other extreme, there is a fully developed baby...i think at that point, the baby should have the right to life in normal conditions...abortion at that time seems to be to be equivalent to taking the life of a week old baby...of course...there are always exceptional cases where the baby's life or the mother's life is in jeapordy during the pregnancy due to some thing or other...those also need to be taken into consideration...so my position on this issue is a compromise...at the moment...i don't know wat degree of compromise though...
      I dunnos...there's so much more i can talk about...but i feel i've rambled enough at this time...i guess if u wanna discuss with me about my views...i will...but yea...after watching the debates...i've considered voting for Kerry...he seems quite moderate...however...i dun trust his record...and he's a Democrat...yeah...i kno...thatz jus' a label...but labels actually do mean something...being a Democrat stands for sumtin'...or else he wouldn't have chosen to be in the Democratic party...so final word...im voting Republican...cuz at the moment...thatz where my ideological beliefs align...

October 11, 2004 8:24 PM
      Today i had free Fenton's...thatz an ice cream place...that's wat i love about being in Berkeley...im part of a large target market known as college students...so i get a lotta free stuff when company's ateempt to advertise themselves to us...hahaha...i love free riding on these promotions...

October 9, 2004 5:54 PM
      Argh...Cal was sooo close to an upset...they were in the red zone...they had 4 downs to pull it off...they only needed one touchdown...4 blown opportunities...dagnabbit...wat a heartbreak...Rodgers was throwing around 26/27 till those last four...so sad...so sad...

October 8, 2004 12:36 AM
      This afternoon, a part of lower Sproul was cordoned off by the police...because there was a suspicious briefcase left on a bench...there were like 10 police in the area...and like one of them was lock-picking the briefcase...the possibility of a real bomb was cool...it'd be so like a movie scene...and i could like answer a news report question..."Yeah...the explosion was enormous...the thing just went KABOOM!...I saw the shrapnel flying too...good thing i was far away enough to be able to hide behind a newspaper box...poor cop...he just didn't cut the right wire..."

September 25, 2004 12:37 AM
      For some reason, I always feel I'm behind in something...whether it be reading, cleaning, ironing, extracurriculars, errands, or sumtin'...i dunnos...i always get things done by the time it needs to be done...but it seems that things always pile up...and then im always puttin' recently acquired things off so i can finish up the things i've postponed and needs to be taken care of now...it would feel nice to be always on top of everything at all times...i think u go to bed feelin' better...like nothin' in the world to worry about...

September 13, 2004 3:04 PM
      I made tryouts for Level 3 Advanced Tennis today...yay! It was fun...
      Pine-sol makes my hands feel super-old and rough...like a laborer's hand...
      I do have hecka knots in my back...my resistance training instructor said my shoulders were hecka tight...so my range of motion is hecka limited...i need to stretch more...and i need massages...massage me...

September 10, 2004 3:35 AM
      I decided to get rid of the ending "oink"...i felt that it was not representing me in the way i want to be expressed...
      My back is so tight...i bet there's a million knots in it...
      My printer broke down...the band that moves the print head back and forth wore out and broke...i need to get a new printer...
      I spend a lot on my credit cards...i've used a total of 700 in august i think...wow...that is a lot...

September 5, 2004 12:54 AM
      Can't sleep...either itz hot or im imsomniatic...
      My computer screen keeps on changing colors on me...sometimes itz normal...and sometimes it flickers to a sickly yellow sheen...
      I need to cut my nails...
      My eyes are tired...but my body is not...go figure...
      I watched Hero two days ago with my sister...hecka good...sad ending...somewat not as great beginning...but it got better...awesome sword fighting...beautiful panoramic scenery...gorgeous color themes...and best of all...it was SUBBED!!!...yay...it would of been ruined if it was dubbed in english...
      Yesterday i saw Garden State with Cando...the scenes were cute...Natalie Portman is pretty...i loved her character...although it would be hard not being able to tell when someone is lying or not if u kno they habitually make things up on the spot...
      Another class section time got switched on me again...stupid scheduling...
      Did i mention it was hot?

      Oink.

August 29, 2004 10:42 PM
      The university should have the courtesy to let us know when they change class schedule times on us...at least send out a quick email to all the students enrolled to notify them of the change in time or day...i am soo mad...the university switched up discussion times on me...now my schedule is whacked because of time conflicts...good thing i check my classes before school starts...i jus' finished scrambling to find another class that can fit my schedule and fit my overall college course plan...dagnabbit...but i still can't make the necessary changes until tomorrow morning at 7...because the system is stupid and shuts down during the weekends...itz automated...why the frick does it need to take the weekend off?...I hope i can get the class i found...this is so gay...now i have to schedule in a Monday 8 AM discussion...
      Somebody's bacon is gonna fry...and itz not me...

      Oink.

August 27, 2004 12:42 AM
      Why am i still up? Don't ask me...cuz i dunnos...there's no point in stayin' up...most people on AIM have gone to bed already anyway...and there's not much to do...maybe itz jus' an inherently college thing programmed in my brain...to be anti-going-to-bed-at-the-right-time...itz not like sleep is bad...sleep is great...especially with my comfy bed...so i have no idea why i dun go to bed...
      I think my face is slightly sunburned...i guess thatz wat happens when u dun use sunblock...especially when u have to be out in the sun tabling for Calapalooza...wow...sunburns happen fast...maybe itz partly the sittin' in the same place and not movin' much...
      Tomorrow is Caltopia...yay...free 10 min massages...and free gunk to take from tables...that must also be programmed into my brain...to take cheap free stuff when u can even tho u dun really need it...i think thatz from the Asian upbringing...
      I got a rape whistle today at the police table...itz cool...so shrill and loud...it hurted my ears when i first blew in it...now i learned to plug my ears first...this prolly came come in handy...i'll sneak up on a sleeping person...and then suddenly blow the whistle...itz a scientific experiment to see how high a person can jump in his sleep from a prone position...
      I need a cool closing line to my entries...maybe i'll try out...

      Oink.

August 24, 2004 2:14 PM
      Finally...now I have internet in my room again...amazing how i survived without it...good thing there was Need for Speed: Underground...awesome game...more about it later...occupied my time enuff that i didn't need to worry that i had no internet...now i need to do some Naruto catchup...
      So this is welcome week now...welcome week is cool...cuz u get to meet all the new people coming in...itz also cool because everyone is around...and everyone has time because school hasn't started yet...yay...non-cool thing is i dun have my real phone number this week...i have my phone...jus' not the number...the phone people ported the wrong number to the wrong sim card...so my phone number is down south...while i have my sister's phone number in my phone...so now i have to wait until my mom comes up to get my phone number back...
      So...Need for Speed...hecka tight racing game...love the music...especially when using Bose Headphones...oh man...u can hear everything...i might try and burn myself a cd of the music from the game and use it as my car music...the game isn't jus' any normal racing game...itz street racing...and u have to do drag, drift, knockouts, sprints, and timed courses...the best part is u can take a rice rocket and soop it up...u can even give it paint jobs and vinyls...i started out with a Honda Civic...and now im at a Toyota Celica...i love the acceleration and handling of the Celica...

August 3, 2004 11:59 PM
      So...i have this issue that i can't untangle...so im gonna use this space to try to straighten out my thoughts...
      Ha...if ur thinkin' wat i think ur thinkin'...then ur gonna be disappointed...so the issue: Should fast food industries be held liable for deaths due to obesity? If they shouldn't, then what about the cigarrete industry? Why should cigarettes be held liable, and hamburgers not? If they should, then what about candy? Why should hamburgers be held liable, while candymakers are not?
      So...my basic position is...people have the right to consume whatever they want...thus...obese people should be responsible themselves for getting fat...and not blame the fast food industry...
      Based on that position...then why shouldn't people have the right to consumer cigarettes? Why should Phillip-Morris be blamed for lung cancer if people themselves choose to smoke cigarettes? I guess an arguement would be that cigarettes contain chemicals which are addictive. However, a counter-arguement would be that even tho hamburgers dun contain the same chemicals, people are still addicted to them as well...
      Upon further thinkin'...i think the main difference between cigarettes and hamburgers...is that cigarettes do not only affect the smoker...but they also affect the people in the vicinity of the smoker...hamburgers do not...just because ur obese friend consumes 10 hamburgers a day does not mean that you will also become enormously overweight just by sitting around him when he eats the food...you may become extremely disgusted...but u will not become fat from standing by him...
      So...the cigarette industry should be held responsible for lung cancer...because they produce a product that harms not only the consumer who chose the product, but also those around the consumer who did not choose it...on the other hand...the fast food industry should not be held responsible for obesity because all the harmful effects were chose by the consumer themselves...thus...the main argument would be that cigarettes force harmful effects on people who did not choose it while hamburgers do not...
      Good...now that im clear...i feel better...yay...

August 1, 2004 11:59 PM
      Woohoo! All finished moving into my new room...hahaha...i get a single!...all to myself!...and i set it up so nice-looking too...so much space...and so...so nice...clean and clean...and after i finish touchin' up...it'll be even super nice...oh yeah!...yay!...this is so nice...so organized...wow...i jus' like lookin' at my bookcase...itz so nicely setup...
      It was tiring moving stuff tho...the most hardest part was moving the heavy stuff...i feel like my muscles are ripped...which is good...cuz that ripped muscles means more scar tissue which means more bulk...yay! i should carryin' big huge bed mattresses around more...
      Too bad most of you can't see it...i so wanna show it off...i guess u guyz can peek through the window...hehehehehe...jus' dun do it at night...=P

July 25, 2004 11:16 PM
      Yay...got corp living assignments today...itz like one of the highlights of the year...this upcoming school year is gonna be tight...i got a single...which means more closet space...woohoo...and it also has a good room history...a grad student who has graduated from the FTTA lived there...and so...it has been kept perpetually clean...double yay!...and more...hehehehehehehehe...ok...enuff giggling over room assignments...

July 16, 2004 12:59 AM
      Halloo...i dun kno wat to write about...i dun feel about writing about that...because i think i've talked about it to death...and i doubt anythin' is gonna be different anytime soon...so no...no entry on that...
      What else then? wat else does my life revolve around...school...school is cool...business classes are fun...business professors kno how to teach...the professor on business ethics is hecka hilarious...he totally bags on all the students...tho i spend monday through thursday mostly focused on class stuff...itz not too bad...i get friday, sat, and lord's day pretty much free...but more detailed stuff about my classes would bore u...so i'll move on...
      I like business...some people do it for the money...to me...money is jus' a nice perk that comes along with it...business is fun to me...i like strategizing...itz like a big game...i gather my resources to conquer other players who are also playing in the game of business...
      I've been farting alot...must be my body recuperating from my recent sickness or sumtin'...farting out all my toxins...i guess thatz wat u call a disease cloud...hahahaha...eww...
      I wanna go sing...who wants to go sing too?...

July 9, 2004 11:05 PM
      So...eventually went to sleep at 6 AM...and then woke up at 9 AM...heh...anyway...day turned out to be pretty good...played some games...went to get lunch...and right when i got lunch Tina and Debs called and asked if i wanted to go to emeryville...and of course i said yes...otherwise i would be spendin' my afternoon doin' diddly squat in my room...so anyway...hit up Lenscrafters, IKEA, Home Depot...IKEA was fun...not like in i like to shop for things fun...but as in i took the pillows and smacked tina with them fun...it was cool too...im amazed at the amount of things u could use as headgear...pots, buckets, IKEA big yellow bags, mouse decoration...the possibilities are endless...actually, IKEA does a great job of showcasing their stuff...when i get a home...imma spend some time in IKEA studyin' the model settings...and then for dinner...i went out with Joy's family and the Burts and Ben to eat at Todai...man...pretty good food...the Todai up here seems better than the one in socal...so yea...good day...it would of been even better if i had sumtin' planned at night to top it off...but i didn't...so i sat my butt in front of my computer wastin' time...oh well...
      These two years in college seem to have a very repetitive theme...i hope im not stuck in the same cycle for the next two years...itz kinda sad...i should prolly completely abstain...but i think i have a natural addiction...ever since kindergarten...haha...people who dun kno wat the heck im talkin' about prolly think ive been a pothead since i was four...hahahahaha...that thought is hecka funny...do i look potheaded to u?...the correct answer is no...

July 9, 2004 4:00 AM
      I can't sleep...

July 9, 2004 2:30 AM
      Too bad im not 21 yet...two words: move on...
      "Jehovah gives and Jehovah takes away; Blessed be the name of Jehovah." -Job 1:21b
      Wat is the feeling? betrayed? played? sorrow? heartbreak?...but no...it is the pain of the natural self dying...increase more in me Lord...increase as i decrease..."mold me shape me Lord...be my reality...even break my heart...if it has to be...i'm desperate Lord that You would have Your way in me..."
      Preserve and keep me Lord...i can't make it without You..."Break through my nature mighty heavenly love...Clear every avenue of thought and brain...Flood my affections, purify my will...Let nothing but Thine own pure life remain..."

July 4, 2004 10:53 PM
      So...i'm back in Berkeley...yay...and tomorrow is a school holiday...yay...and im catchin' up on the episodes i've missed of Naruto...yay...life is good...yay...
      The crystallization study of Colossians was good...here are the banners...

• The all-inclusive Christ, the centrality and universality of God's economy, is our life and the unique constituent of the new man.
• We need to walk in Christ as our living land, and absorb Christ as our rich soil so that we may grow with the growth of God.
• In His economy, God gives us one person--the all-inclusive, extensive, preeminent Christ, and one way--the cross.
• We need to let the peace of Christ arbitrate in our hearts, let the Word of Christ dwell in us richly, and persevere in prayer for the one new man.

July 1, 2004 11:19 PM
      My mom is funny...she drives all fast and switches lanes a bunch...and then looks over at me and my siblings and go..."im driving recklessly...dun try this urself"...
      I feel old...after a meeting two nights ago...a little kid i knew ran up to a group of us...and my first reaction was to say, "My how tall you've grown."...scary huh...im starting to talk like an uncle...and im only 20...im starting to act and sound like an...an adult...*shocked silence*...i kno...the horror...

July 1, 2004 8:28 AM
      People have different rituals when it comes to eating cereal...some pour in the cereal before the milk...others pour in the milk before the cereal...some like to let it soak in the milk until it becomes mush...some eat it dry...some eat grapenuts *shudder*...and some use soymilk or orange juice (eww)...myself...after pouring the milk on the cereal...i use my spoon to make sure each peice has been dunked in milk at least once...and then i procede to eat...even while i am chewing a mouthful, my spoon systematically making sure the cereal is being well-dunked in milk...this way...the cereal is not dry...because it is only dunking...yet it retains its crispness unless my eating of cereal takes forever...

June 29, 2004 11:01 PM
      I bought new pants this past Lord's Day...why dun they ever have a pantleg length of 28?...thatz like a rarity...usually the shortest is 30...im not like the shortest person in the world...im sure they're excluding a whole buncha other non-long-legged people by not having shorter pantlegs...dude...so annoying...and since i haven't had time to get it tailored yet...i've been wearing my new pants to the training...feels hecka long...but itz ok...i jus' roll it up inwards...but then it falls down...i guess itz a good thing most people dun try to check out ur pant legs near ur shoe at the training...
      Speaking of training...i go to sleep on time...i even take afternoon naps...and i still slightly doze off durin' the meetings...i am seriously narcoleptic...at least this time my notes dun trail off in pen scribbles when i doze off...i dun think i doze off too long either...probably longest is 5 min...but i haven't really timed myself so i dun quite know for sure...

June 28, 2004 1:24 AM
      My fortune cookie say, "Your life will be happy and peaceful." Yay for good fortune...happy and peaceful life is good...i noticed a whole stack of fortune cookie slips have piled up in my wallet...i didn't kno i'd eaten that many fortune cookies already...must transfer to my fortune cookie slip collection...yes...i collect fortune cookie fortunes...itz a simple and relatively easy hobby...so might as well...besides...itz kinda cool to read the things u got over again...

June 26, 2004 10:02 PM
      Yay...back in socal...i like california...i like sleeping late and in...did i mention i lost my grandma at the Kao-Shiung Airport?...yea...scared me to death...but itz ok...i found her later...after 30 min of walking both wings of the airport and back...and again and back...all the time carrying some heavy bags...i found her sitting just outside the security checkpoint...
      I went swimming yesterday...my dog can swim good...his doggy style is faster than my freestroke...he can catch the frisbee while swimming too...cool dog...'cept he always tries to swim toward u...and then if u get knocked by his paddling paws...it hurts...itz like playin' Shark in the pool...except this shark never gets tired...

June 21, 2004 5:58 PM
      Mmm...the palms of my hands smell like peaches...SNIFF THEM DAGNABBIT!!!...ok fine...don't...but yea...itz cuz i washed a peach...amazing isn't it?...my hands smell like peaches because i was holding a peach...who would've thought...
      After reading a number of other people's entries...i have the desire to rant and rave again against the clique-ness of xanga...why can't it be more open-minded like LiveJournal and allow non-members to make comments as well?...seriously...so exclusive...
      i realized my alarm clock in taiwan doesn't ring anymore...i realized that after i woke up and it was past the time i had set for the alarm...and i kno for sure i didn't hear anything...it still keeps time...but the alarm part doesn't seem to trigger a ring...how gay...i only bought it like 2 weeks ago at a night market...cheap taiwanese night market shoddiness...either that...or it sucks battery power like a battery-sucking freak...
      Oh...I thought of another thing to rant about...comment on my entries dagnabbit!...I kno u guyz read them...everybody comments on everything else...but will anyone comment on this webpage consistently?...noooo...all u web-cist people...dun make me bust out the cool kung-fu moves that i only kno how to pull off in my dreams...yeah...jus' cuz u dun fear me now doesn't mean u won't be pissing ur pants when faced with my No-Shadow-Flying-Phoenix-Eighteen-Channels-Ice-Element-Jade-Sword-of-Destiny-Turbo Stance w/ NOS-Compatibility in my dreams...yea...and since itz in my dreams...i won't need no thin metal strings for me to fly/run all cool in the air and stuff...oh yea...i will so whoop ur asttucks...so u better comment...

June 21, 2004 10:58 AM
      I despise Taiwanese weather...it's pouring cat and dogs outside and the temperature is still at 82 degrees...that is pure sickness...and the high for today is 91 degrees...disgusting...absolutely disgusting...itz like a sauna...except ur clothes are on...and will prolly stick to u if u stay outside too long...i wish i can thank the inventor of the air conditioner...it is surely a life saver...since we're on the topic of things i despise...i also despise 800 x 600 resolution on the computer screen...i hate scrolling up and down so much to read a few lines of text...how can people stand it...why don't people get a video card to support at least 1024 x 768?...it looks so much better...and besides...800 x 600 resoltuion makes website designing so annoying...cuz u have to accomodate those people who still friggin' have 800 x 600 resolution...this is 2004...get better video cards people...

June 17, 2004 5:37 PM
      Hah...if you think China streets are crazy...then u've never experienced Taiwan countryside boi...not only are the streets smaller..like two lanes going opposite ways instead of 3 lanes going one way...people also drive faster...or at least my dad does...u also gotta watch for the pedestrians that randomly walk across the street to get the streetfront shops on both sides and to dodge the cars parked on the side that jut out into the street...and on top of that... some trucks are so slow that u move into incoming traffic to pass them...itz like playin' chicken sometimes...see who will slow down first...u or the incoming car...oh...and more...my dad clips his nails or eats breakfast while driving...if it was jus' when we're waiting for the red light...that'd be fine...but no...itz also when we're trying to pass other cars...fun huh?...dang my dad has skillz...

June 14, 2004 8:39 PM
      My pen is leaking. It is very sad. It is a good pen; the 0.5 mm type. Why must a good pen leak? Why must such a terrible fate befall such a good pen? Is there no justice? Its life-blood is slowling leaking out as I watch, blackening everything that comes into contact with it. It breaks my heart; it breaks my heart terribly.

      A basic principle every manager should know is self-control. Everyone undergoes stress; everyone has personal problems in their life. However, that must not be brought into the workplace. People of higher positions may have more stress because of more responsibilities; yet, the higher one's position, the more one should keep oneself in check. Moodiness and outbursts of anger will have a negative impact on your working relation with your co-workers and subordinates. It will make it hard for others to work with you. It will create a less efficient and less productive working environment. Take to an extreme, it will cause others to leave the company in search of a job with better working conditions. That last item is a serious damage to the company; it will result in a loss of talent which will be hard to replace.
      Even when an employee is absolutely wrong, there is no justification for a manager to show an unpleasant display of anger outburst. Sure, the manager may be justifiably angry, but that anger must be contained. No good comes from railing at an employee for long stretches; angry outbursts only serve to either demoralize people or cause resentment. Instead of blowing off personal steam, carefully explain to the worker where he went wrong and what he should have done. In addition, clearly state the consequence of similar future failures, whether it be dismissal, demotion, or a reduction in wages. Never, absolutely never, utilize physical force.

June 14, 2004 2:11 PM
      Here is another high on tea entry...
      The things I could do if I was invisible! I'd have no need for clothes. It wouldn't matter if I ran around butt naked. I would be mooning all of you all the time and you wouldn't know it. I could creep up behind ducks and shoot them point blank. And then laught at the hunter hiding in the bushes who's been there for two whole days and wasn't able to shoot even one. After laughing at him, I'd then give him a wedgie.
      If I was invisible, I'd also infiltrate the Communist Chinese government and annihilate all their censoring machines so I could view my own website in China and use AIM properly. Then I'd give all those communist computer people wedgies too.
      I could also become ruler of Middle-Earth. I'd steal the throne of Gondor and Rohan and all those strategic places. Unlike my little buddy Elijah Wood, I don't need a ring to be invisible. Therefore, I won't have that whacked out vision as if I was smoking weed. And since Sauron can't see me, because I don't have the ring, I could sneak up on him in Mordor and give him a wedgie. Shoot, might as well give Gandalf a wedgie as well. Actually, on second thought, I don't think I will. He might enjoy it too much. *shudder*
      There's a bad part to being invisible though. If I ever go to the carnival and go into the House of Horror, I think I will get perpetually lost in the Maze of Mirrors forever and ever. Unless I smash the mirrors with a hammer. Hmm. That's a plan. Especially since I can escape the subsequent dragnet the security guards will setup to try and catch me. But they won't. Because I am invisible. And then I'll give them a wedgie.

June 13, 2004 6:30 PM
      Mmm...field chickens are sooo good...that translated to normal talk is frogs...tastes like chicken but the meat is more bouncy and comes off the bones easier...i sat there for like an additional 10 min after everyone was finished with their dinner and ate more froggie legs and froggie body parts...filled a whole small plate with bones...and Asia KFC's dan tah is pretty good too...the crust is croisant like and the yellow middle part is softer...oooh...chinese people should add a KFFC...Kentucky Fried Field Chicken...mmmm...fried froggies...

June 11, 2004 7:59 PM
      I think I was high on Chinese tea when typing the previous entry...hahaha...
      Why are people lazy? People do not want to exert themselves. For what are the benefits of exertion if you gain the same result by being lazy? Thus, in order to stamp out laziness, a clear distinction must be made between the results of diligence and that of laziness. Incentives for diligence and punishments for laziness must be established. The difference between the gain from incentives and the loss from punishment should equal the value of exertion it takes to move from laziness to diligence.
      Gain from incentive - Loss from punishment = Difference of exertion between diligence and laziness
      The change of exertion is a relative thing. How can we develop a standard system of measurement? Through a quota? In attemption to fill a quota, the quality of products may fall. Then what? Impose a quota, but for any corporate loss that results from defects will be taken directly from the worker's paycheck. How do you determine which worker was the cause of the problem? You can't. So you hold the entire division accountable. After suffering just two times from their colleagues inadequacy, peer pressure to perform up to par will be put into effect. But the crucial link for this is the managers. If the managers do not do their job, all the underlings will also slack off. It is necessary that the managers manage the workers as their job title states. Otherwise, the entire system will not work.

June 11, 2004 4:32 PM
      If eyebrows could double as daggers, I'd put Miracle-Gro Rogaine on them and grow mine out long. Then the phrase, "if looks could kill," would have the "if" dropped from it. I'd then use LA Style hair gel of strength 10 billion for ludicrously super hold to spike my eyebrows. Then everytime I want to kill someone, I would only have to look at them and my eyebrows would pierce them through so many times over that they would leak like a human sieve. I would become the top assassin in the world. I could even kick Jet Li's asttucks even though he has his own formidable eyebrows. We would exchange some super cool Chinese kung-fu moves with like slow motion 360 camera revolution poses for some bit, and then I would whoop his asttucks. Because I have more formidable eyebrows, because I use Miracle-Gro Rogaine. My cool assassin secret name would be "Mr. Eyebrows." Except it's not very secret anymore. Because I just told you. The only way it would become secret again is...*suddenly looks at you*...doh! Forgot I was typing online. Now I need a new monitor. But don't worry. I'll track each one of you down and then look at you.

      It is a lie that babies are delivered by storks. It is a vicious lie. This lie was concocted by the Stork Supporters, also known as the SS for devious purposes. Storks could never deliver babies; the rapid change in air pressure when storks take flight is extremely uncomfortable for babies. You would hear a whole cacaphony of screaming babies from the sky if storks really delivered babies. But you don't, because storks do not deliver babies. Pandas do. Credit should go where credit is due. Pandas work very hard to deliver the babies to their proper homes. Why do you think they have black rims around their eyes? Because they often get socked by the flailing arms and kicking legs of the multiple babies they carry around. And also due to the lack of sleep from taking care of the screaming babies in transit, waiting to be carried to their new homes. Duh.

      As a side not: babies and little children taken aboard a plane should come equipped with a roll of duct tape...for their mouths...omgosh...so freakin' annoyin'...on the plane ride from Taiwan to Hong Kong...every moment...some baby or little kid or sumtin' was screamin' its head off for no reason...or some really stupid reason...like when we were taking off...some kid was bawling cuz he saw a plane and wanted to ride on it...like he wasn't on one already...

June 11, 2004 8:28 AM
      Hi...im in China right now...apparently my webpage is banned here because i dun seem to be able to access it...all i get is that one error page...except with the Chinese...there's also ads on it...that seems pretty capitalistic to me...oh well...at least i can still edit entries...thatz prolly cuz the address is different for the page to edit entries...whew...haha...i have no idea why Communist China would want to censor my page...hahahahaha...thatz so funny...
      Anyway...itz such a hassle to come to China from Taiwan...there's like a prohibition from flyin' directly from one place to the other...so me and my dad had to get to China via Hong Kong...which amounts to a lot of ridiculous paperwork...first u have to have a Hong Kong visa, fill out a HK entry/exit form, fill out a no-SARS document, and then for the Chinese border...u need a China travel permit, China entry form, and another no-SARs form...sheesh...

June 9, 2004 5:58 PM
      I'm so bored waiting for my dad that i decided to write another entry...the third one for today...
      I believe that it is a scientific fact that cow abuse is funny...itz like one of the established Laws of the Universe...Law of Hilarity #47: The utilization of random bovine abuse lends hilarity to a movie, book, magazine, advertisement, etc. Seriously...take a look at some of the movies recently made...Rat Race: they had a cow swinging from an airplane to crash into an incoming car windshield...that was funny; Monty Python and the Holy Grail: launching cows from a catapult at the snotty French...high marks in funny; Kung Pow-Enter the Fist: they had a cow that could whoop ur asttucks...it got whooped instead...funny again; Van Helsing: one of the hot vampire chicks in her not-so-hot vampire mode threw a random cow through a thatched roof...extremely funny points; and so on...so as we have seen from the countless proofs...the abuse of cows elicits amusement...itz like one of those psychological natural reflex things...cow abuse=funny...u can't help but laugh when cows get flung around...

June 9, 2004 5:26 PM
      The urinals here frighten me...im talkin' about besides the gottawful smell of...mothballs???...why do they use mothballs in urinals?...but yea...besides that...there's a pretty good-sized picture of Andy Lau on top of the urinal...for those of you who dun kno...he's an actor/singer from Hong Kong...yea...in Hong Kong, if ur an actor...ur also most likely to double as a singer too...so yea...when ur taking a piss...some man is sittin' there staring straight up at u...and smiling too...even tho itz not a real person...it still almost makes u too embarrassed to perform...seriously...
      Oh yea...because the computer guyz for the company weren't around...i couldn't get a faster computer which I need in order to run photoshop...so...in order to look productive...i began editing the scooter photos in MS Paint...yea...how tacky is that...

June 9, 2004 7:44 AM
      This is scary...i go to bed at 9 PM...that is freakingly scary...im a college student...this is summer...that scares me so much i pissed my pants...think about the implications of that...omgosh...totally...no...im not talking about the implications of me pissing my pants...focus focus...wat is the world coming to when college students go to bed at 9 PM on a regular basis?...this probably will result in a ripping of the space/time continuum fabric or sumtin' important like that...and then clones of u from parallel dimensions will crawl through that hole and mess up ur life...like talkin' smack to ur boss...and gettin' u fired even tho it was actually ur evil clone and not u...or like runnin' through the streets with ur bum naked and a lampshade over ur head...and that'll make u look bad...even tho at the time u were in bed sleeping...cuz it was 9:01 PM...
      I need more personality in my entries...so im going to try to say sumtin' outrageously funny...okay...here goes..."do you like chocolate eclairs? well thatz not it...thatz doggie doo doo doo doodoo"...haha...ha......*sob*...im a miserable failure...

June 7, 2004 5:14 PM
      Actually...a friend brought to my attention the fact that the matter of flight attendants seeming cute was due to my desperation...u see...if u give a super super hungry man a bowl of plain rice...that plain rice would taste hecka good...thus...being stuck on an airplane in the same seat for over 12 hours skews my perspectives and makes the average flight stewardess look pretty cute...yea...my friend is prolly right...cuz flight stewardesses aren't all that cute really...tho not to say there are no cute flight attendants...jus' the majority aren't...
      Editing 42 pages of fobby english is hard work...im tired already...im gonna finish the last 17 pages some other time...besides...itz past 5...im technically off work...tho im not even being paid to work...so i dun understand why i feel constrained to the job schedule...heh...
      I should join GA...hi...my name is Jon...and i...*sob*...i have a problem...*buries face in hands*...hahahahahahahahaha...u smart cookies should be able to figure out wat GA stands for...

June 6, 2004 1:13 PM
      So...im in Taiwan now...Chia-Yi to be specific...is it me...or are flight attendants cuter now?...or maybe itz cuz im old enuff to appreciate it...cuz back when i was a kid...all i wanted on the airplane was my free box of legos...hahahahahaha...but omgosh...speaking of cute...Elisha Cuthbert in The Girl Next Door...yea...that was one of the movies i gotta watch on the plane...i knew she was cute before...but wow...in that movie she was like super sizzling hot...lucky guy that Matthew kid is...
      My parents forgot to get me my Hong Kong visa...so now when my dad goes on his trip to China...i might be left in Taiwan by myself...yea...interesting huh...and i might have the BMW to be driving around...in Taiwan...man...gonna be learning how to street park well...

June 3, 2004 11:26 PM
      I played basketball with my dog today...it was fun...the problem was tho...my dog doesn't kno the rules...so every time he stole the ball away...he started gnawing at it...yea...so he scored 0 points...and there were a lot of personal fouls...hahahahahaha...
      Today my sister had her graduation ceremony...she gave a pretty decent speech...i was impressed...she actually can give a speech...wow...amazing...yea...and it was also a mini-reunion too...met a lotta past classmates from high school...cool stuff...man...i was so stuffy sittin' in my suit in the front row seat...i almost felt like i got heat stroke or sumtin'...itz ok...got the best observation point in the house...lotta pictures afterwards too...
      And then tomorrow...im leavin' for Taiwan...won't be back till the Summer Training...but itz ok...i'll prolly still be online...hahaha...

May 29, 2004 11:21 PM
      Hahahahaha...Shrek II is so hilarious...cute lil' donkey dragons...hehe...i loved all the parodies they did...i think the funniest one was the Cops scene...hahahahaha...pepper "spray"...illegal catsnip..."wait...that's not mine"...hahahaha...oh oh...or maybe the Mission Impossible parody...hahahahaha...who would of thought Pinnochio was a crossdresser...i am continually impressed by all these CGI movies...they do awesome jobs on them...beautiful computer graphics...and wonderful plot with a good dosage of humor...kudos to Dreamworks for a job well done...

May 28, 2004 3:12 AM
      So...i get off for summer break...and as soon as people know about it...i get hit with a request by my serving one to make the Morning Revival for the Young People for the duration of their Summer School of Truth...and a request by my dad to edit the translation of a 29 page company profile...heh...i guess itz sumtin' to do...tho work is like anathema in the summer...i guess itz not so bad...i went through 5 pages of the translation thing in half an hour...so the whole thing will prolly take 3 hours...and i also figure the morning revival stuff will prolly take a total of 10 hours...which i can spread out through a week...so it only amounts to about 1.4 or so hours a day...
      I played Axis & Allies: Europe wit my brother today...as Germany I so go rocked by the Allies...man...itz hard fighting on three fronts...but at least i did moderately better than Hitler...at my peak i had demolished the British and American navy, overan North Africa and the Middle East, fought back multiple American landings at Normandy, and had tanks in the southern underbelly of the Soviet Union...tho in the end, the result looked pretty similar...which was a retreat on all fronts by German troops back into the Fatherland with the Allied powers hard on their heels...i could have held on to Germany for a long while...but the US just kept on sending troops after troops...the end was inevitable...

May 25, 2004 6:43 PM
      Most college students in the Recovery only need to decide between work, grad school, or the FTTA after they finish their undergraduate studies...if those choices aren't already hard enough...now my mom wants me to go to FTTT...yea...Full Time Training Taipei...yea...u didn't read it wrong...once again...Taipei...supposedly i'll learn more Chinese or sumtin'...frankly...i think i'll be too busy tryin' to learn the characters to actually understand wat the heck everyone is sharing...try speakin' the content of the High Peak of the Divine Revelation in Chinese...not so easy huh...u kno...they get up at 6:00 in the morning to do corporate running and exercise...omgosh...and then there's all the humidity and the mosquitos to deal with...i hate humidity + mosquitos...*sigh*...aint that jus' dandy...i don't wanna go...but now i feel bad because in sayin' "i don't wanna go"...because i kno itz my self that's sayin' "i don't wanna go"...and the self is no good...now i actually need to consider that as another option before the Lord...shoot...i hope the Lord doesn't lead me to go that way...cuz i really really dun wanna go spend two whole years in Taiwan...

May 25, 2004 1:25 PM
      Omgosh...funniest thing i saw today...so i was in a chinese market right?...and one of the products was called "Women's Breakfast" in chinese...hehe...the english translation said "Bimbo Cereal"...hahahahahahaha...so cracked me up...hahahahahaha...
      Heh...must find simple things to laugh at...

May 24, 2004 11:37 PM
      Ewww...the big scab near my left knee is peeling...anyway...im down in soCal now folks...so come find me and play with me...not like i have anything else to do...*in a hypnotic tone*...play with me...play with me...you are getting the urge to play with me...

May 23, 2004 12:42 AM

      "How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
      The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
      Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
      Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd."
      -Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard"

      In certain moods, i would agree with Pope that to be released from thoughts and memories would be a blessing...however, i have realized that it is human to remember and it is human to feel...and to have these feelings and these memories is part of being human...there's no good thing that comes from runnin' away from it...jus' accept them as part of you and make the best out of what is now...i felt calm and reposed in my soul after watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...a great movie...which i also highly recommend...it will indeed touch ur heart...

May 22, 2004 7:12 PM
      I spend too much time guessing, assuming, hoping, analyzing...i wish i was a stupid jock...not that jocks are stupid...but u get the idea...then things wouldn't weigh as heavily cuz i'd be too dumb to think things through...when i assume that my assumptions are wrong...i thing i'd feel really ridiculously stupid...like the butt of a secret joke...i say such depressing things huh?...heh...story of my life...

May 21, 2004 11:57 PM

      "Follow the Lord like a charging stallion;
      Race for the Son with all your might;
      Guard your heart like a gold medallion;
      Keep the Kingdom full in sight."

      I pray the Lord guard my heart...keep and preserve me fully...

May 21, 2004 5:40 PM
      Yes!...turned in my simultaneous degree app...whew...thatz one less burden on my chest...but i feel all woozy and stuff...dun go to sleep at 5 AM...itz not good for ur health...i feel so weak right now...weak weak weak...

      "Though the world may promise me more,
      I'm just made to be filled with the Lord
      Nor is life worth living a day
      For the things that will soon pass away.

      Doesn't matter how rich or successful I'll be,
      Or how many pleasures be offered to me
      There's nothing that compares to my destiny
      To be thoroughly filled with the Lord."

May 20, 2004 10:06 PM
      My mind feels clearer after having some dinner and then playin' some ball afterwards...now that i've regained my rationality...upon reflection...i feel stupid for writing what i did below...im too self-occupied...all this should be put in the Lord's hand...not mine...so i shouldn't "will" myself to anythin'...the Lord will take care of it one way or another...all i need to do is trust in Him...if itz not of the Lord...He wil cause the feelings to go away...it should not be of my own willing but the Lord's doing...the Lord does things in His own time...tho it still would be nice to kno what the other is thinking...but i guess itz not that crucial anymore...so if you wanna tell me...tell me...but if you don't...itz alright too...

May 20, 2004 5:58 PM

      "Say that you don't care and I'll walk away
      Say that you don't give a d*mn and I won't stay
      But if you feel the same way that I feel
      Girl you gotta show it
      Cuz girl I wanna know it."

      -Say That DnH

      So...i guess i dun even need to ask...im jus' gonna give the whole thing a deadline...if things are still like this by this coming monday...as in...if it seems like there's still no definate indication at all that there is something there...then imma pack up and walk away...i gotta warn u tho...once everything is locked in my internal safe and buried...they're not coming back out...trust me...i kno...and there's the entire summer to get over it...so...if there is anythin'...even the slightest anything...i guess the next few days are gonna be the last chance...otherwise im closing the book and itz gonna remain shut forever...
      Re-reading wat i jus' typed...i dunnos...i feel like an immature, demanding brat...like seriously...who am i to issue an ultimatum?...yea...call me messed up...but im jus' typin' from wat im feeling...I guess I should apologize for typing all this here...maybe itz not even appropriate...i dunnos...im jus' tired of pining away for something if it all never existed...consider my request as for a mercy bullet...put me out of my misery...
      It's not like i want a relationship...especially with the complication of Corporate Living...but at least some acknowledgement if there is any? Just to kno that im not starin' down a one street...but if it is truly one-way...it'd prolly be best to hear the "No."...jus' like amputating a gangerous limb...better to cut it off then let the disease spread further...
      Can i bear to do this? Can i bring myself to cut the string that binds me? I dunnos...but i can will myself to do it...and bein' the stubborn fool that i am...i can will these feelings to die...

May 19, 2004 9:43 AM
      Question: How do you tell when people dun wanna talk to you? Answer: they dun respond...
      So...im done now...yay!...i think i did well on this last final for Econ 121...at least i hope i did well...i felt good after taking it tho...so thatz cool...
      From now until monday are gonna be fun days...wella...hopefully they will...hopefully my friends will have time to play with me...
      I dunnos...i seriously wanna kno if i should move on...but i dun think i can if there's the tiniest hope...hope is so deceiving...but yea...i wanna kno...but at the same time...itz difficult to find out...or at least the process of finding out isn't so easy peasy...i dunnos...i have the balls to ask...but the question is whether i should or not...heh...watcha think?

May 18, 2004 11:20 AM
      Phone alarm clocks are unreliably gay...so...last night i set mine up to wake me up at 6:50 in the morning so i can get ready for my Econ 100B final at 8 AM...and so i wake up at 8:45...and go..."OH FRICK!!!"...stupid alarm didn't even ring...so i kno i didn't sleep through it...so i end up runnin' to class...luckily i go to sleep in normal clothes so i didn't need to change...i even had my retainers in when takin' the final...so friggin' friggin' friggin' stupid...being late to ur final is so demoralizing...i didn't even feel like checkin' the answers after i was done...i still feel demoralized even right now as im typin' this out...at least i finished the test with some time to spare tho...but i really would've of liked to be able to get some last minute mental touchin' up done in the morning while eating breakfast...this mornin' so sucks...prolly the suckiest morning ever this semester...

May 15, 2004 8:29 PM
      Who needs Six Flags? Berkeley has itz own lil' rollercoaster...when ur goin' down in the elevator in Evans...jump as high as u can when it initially starts movin' down...that elevator drops hecka fast...feels hecka tight...i felt slightly post-rollercoastery after i got down to the ground floor...hahahahahaha...bonus points if u do it when there's other people in there...
      Actually...on second thought...Six Flags does sound better than the elevator in Evans...

May 11, 2004 4:23 PM
      Yay...no more classes...let the fun begin...can't wait to play tennis and go tanning tomorrow...hehehe...and can't wait to go singin' wit all u cool friends sumtime...
      I wanna be 4 years old again...growin' up is so sad...i want my innocence back...i want to marvel at the ocean waves as i toddle across the wet sand...marvel at the greatness of nature without feeling the insignificance of one's self...i want to be oblivious to all troubles as i dig a castle in the sand...no writing of names and symbols or poems...only the simple enjoyment of watching the moat fill with the ocean water...i want to be simple again...not so entangled in the twists and turns of my tortuous being...
      There's a lotta dust in my keyboard...gross...

May 9, 2004 7:35 PM
      "Que sera sera/ whatever will be will be/ the future's not ours to see/ que sera sera, que sera sera..." -My Neighbors the Yamadas
      So...why do i feel the bite of the green bug?...i kno i shouldn't be...but i am...and i feel that time is slipping by...each moment without [] seems a moment wasted...thatz a hecka lotta moments then...and i only got two more years...i must be in my depressing stage right now...i can already visualize cando shaking her fist at me...but why am i so blah? i dun even feel the click yet...and without the click...it really won't go anywhere even if there is sumtin'...and do i even want something?...but that question is moot anyway cuz most likely there's prolly no way that there's gonna be sumtin'...somebody smack me upside the head...or jus' play boardgames games wit me...or letz go watch a movie...oh oh...letz go karoakin' and take my mind off the depressing stuff...occupy my mind so my emotions have no space to squeeze in...ok...im done wit my two mantoh dinner...how sad is that...only two mantohs for dinner...so imma go play ball at the RSF now...keeps me from thinkin' too much...toodles...

May 7, 2004 10:56 AM
      Ok...so Troy was a good movie...notice how i said "good" and not "great"...it had some awesome parts...but it also had many parts that were uhm...jus' corny...the battle scenes were excellent...they at least met my expectations and maybe even more...the individual duel scenes were well choreographed...Achille's jump thrust is so tight...and the war scene were indescribable...the first assault on Troy brought to mind ocean waves crashing on the ageless rocks...those scenes were so realisticly done...kudos to the war choreographers...
      Ok...now wat about the corniness? The cheesiest actor award goes to Orlando Bloom who played Paris...seriously...every other thing Bloom says is so so corny...but i guess he was a good fit as a wimpy, useless prince...but the other actors were well cast...for this movie...i think Eric Bana did the best job as Hector...i really sympathized with him...Brad Pitt was good as Achilles also...but there were seriously some dramatic shots that paused way way too long on Brad Pitt posing...prolly fanservice to all the ladies that went...hahahaha...oh...most of you guyz prolly wanna know how Helen was...Helen was cute...but not that cute...she's supposed to be the most beautiful woman in the ancient Greek world...but no...she fell very short of that mark...but that might also be cuz of a cuter girl sittin' a few feet away from me...Helen so pales in comparison to her...
      So...overall...good movie...tho there wasn't really any twists...considerin' everybody knows the story...i couldn't help asking myself when the Trojoans pulled the giant horse into the city..."hmm...i wonder what's in that horse..." hahahahahaha....oh...and some stupid loser pulled the fire alarm after the first 30 min or so into the moive...had to make us evacuate and wait in line for 45 min until the fire marshall certified that the building was not burning down...kinda lame at the time...but in retrospect...i think it was a good turn of events...we did end up gettin' better seats...among other things...hahahahahahahahahah...ok...maybe i revealed too much in this entry...oh well...

May 3, 2004 12:53 PM
      So I hesitated...and then the time ran out...so here's my portion that i didn't share...
      John 1:12 "But as many as received Him, to them He gave the authority to become children of God, to those who believe into His name." Praise the Lord! When we first believed, God dispensed His divine life into us. We received the Spirit, who brought with Him the Father's life. This is wondrous! We, who are men, have the Father's life and are now sons of God! But we still must mature in life. "Life and maturity give us the right, the privilege, the position, to inherit the things of the Father. According to the New Testament, sonship includes life, maturity, position, and right" (Life Study of Galations pp.192).
      Let's say there is a 5 year old boy. His father owns a company and promises that his son will inherit it. The boy is his father's son. But no father, in their right mind, would hand over control of a company to a 5 year old, no matter if that child is his son. It is only when the boy grows in life and mature to a certain stature will the father hand the company over. Likewise, until we mature in life, we cannot fully inherit the blessing of God's promise.
      God's promise to us is much better than some corporation. "Christ today is the life-giving Spirit as the blessing of the gospel, the blessing promised by God" (pp. 211). Praise the Lord, Christ is our rich inheritance! One the one hand, we are given the blessing of the promise once we reach maturity. On the other hand, we are gaining this blessing bit by bit, as Christ is being formed in us day by day, saturating every part with Himself. If we want to enjoy the blessing, we need to allow the all-inclusive Spirit to occupy every part of our inner being, letting Christ be everything ot us. Until one day, Christ will be fully formed in us, and we will have the full enjoyment of the blessing. Praise the Lord! We are being fully brought into the sonship!

April 29, 2004 11:52 PM
      So I walked around southside of Berkeley campus 3/4 blind...woke up from a nap and put on my glasses only to realize that a screw for some strange reason had disappeared, which meant my left lens fell outta the glasses frame...i tried usin' the glasses with one lens on...but that started givin' me a headache cuz half my vision was clear and half was blurred...then i tried only usin' my right eye...but that was too much exertion tryin' to keep the other eye shut...so i walked around without glasses on to find somewhere to get it fixed...i tried the Tang Center first...but they were closed at 5...and it was 5:45 when i got there...so that sucked...that meant i walked all the way to Telegraph to the eye-glasses shop there...they so totally gouged me jus' to put in one tiny screw...friggin' charged me $2...man...takin' advantage of a helpless guy when he's down...like what am i supposed to do...refuse?...then i'd have to spend another 15 hours blind as a bat...shoot...but good thing is that my glasses are now fixed...
      And i'm glad they got fixed...otherwise i would of missed a totally awesome movie...got to go to another free screening...Mean Girls...hecka hilarious...about high school and all the mean stuff girls do to each other...man...girls are vicious...so funny...it was sumtin' i would expect from the people who do SNL...and they kept it pretty clean too...at least way cleaner than American Pie and things like that...but yea...once again...friggin' hilarious...u guyz should all go watch it...and on a side note...always check both ways before crossing the street...and always...i repeat...always...make sure there's no bus goin' headlong at you when you cross...hahahahahahahaha...

April 28, 2004 5:02 PM
      Hahahaha...i was recruited for the Cal Handball team today in PE class...i dunnos...i dun think im that good...amateurish even...but they said i had innate talent and skills or sumtin'...hahaha...hecka funny...i'll see if i wanna join tho...they said practice is informal...so i might jus' go occasionally to play for fun...but yea...maybe it'll be good for my resume...to have been on a collegiate sports team...cool...

April 26, 2004 1:49 AM
      I get either psychotically weird or depressing in the early mornings...like one-ish...Cando shakes her fist a lot at me if i get depressing...but when im psychotically weird...itz hecka funny...i think of hecka funny stuff...that tend on the questionable-about-jon's-sanity side...hahahahaha...ok...gonna sleep now...

April 23, 2004 11:51 PM
      I have had a great thought...maybe sometimes people are bored and wanna do sumtin'...but then they think other people are too busy to do stuff...so i decided to fix that misconception...i am free to do stuff with u...and these are my available times...

April 23, 2004 12:50 AM
      Wow...Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore are so cute together in Laws of Attraction...great movie...i found it hilarious too...hehehe...though some scenes were kinda contrived...like how do u seduce a highly skilled divorce lawyer in one night...but i guess Brosnan is jus' so pimp...man...wish i could be a charmer like him...all y'all should go see it if u haven't yet...definately playful and cute...
      Mmm...fried chicken wings are good...thatz wat i had for dinner while i waited in line for the free movie...i also had some boba from Sweethearts...dang...i still think they have the best boba...tho it is slightly pricey...but in this case...u do get what u pay for...like Cafe Boba is cheap...but they're drinks aint that spectacular...but Sweetheart's...now that's a drink...i usually get the Almost Green Milk Tea...good stuff...oh yea...and i got free popcorn by waiting in line...how cool is that...u go to a free preview...and they pay u popcorn to wait in line...that so like offsets the opportunity cost of waiting...and u get the added benefit of watching a free movie...yay!...Berkeley Superb is superb!...kudos to them...

April 22, 2004 12:56 AM
      I wonder when they'll get around to lettin' me swear in for my citizenship...i've gone through the whole process of naturalization...and now im jus' waitin' to be sworn in...thing is...i've been waiting for almost a year now...kinda wonder if they lost my application and information and stuff...so yea...im still an alien...take me to ur master...
      I seem to write more entries late in the night...perhaps this is due to the fact that im more creative at night...or perhaps its due to the fact that i have nuttin' else to do but write entries...i think it may be my lot in life to stare down a one-sided road...but oh wellz...what will be will be...what will not be will not be...everything is as it should be...dang...i sound like a Chinese philosopher translated into English...u could prolly draw some mountains and waterfalls and hills and stunted trees in black ink to go with my poetic deep thought/realization/epiphany/poem...so cool i am...yea...thatz wat i tell myself...i have an inflated ego with a inferiority complex...how funny is that...

April 12, 2004 6:14 PM
      I wonder why i have mini Ryu and mini Ken at the top of my homepage...im not even that into Street Fighter...wat the heck am i thinkin'?...but i guess i wouldn't kno wat to put there as a replacement...i still can't get over how cool the song for this page sounds...if u can't hear it...it might mean that the page with the song has exceeded itz alloted data transfer or sumtin'...i really have an urge to revamp my website again...but i can't come up with anything really cool...so itz left at wat it is...i would so like to add a picture gallery...but then i dun have a digital camera...so that doesn't work...ah wellz...
      I want to make a webpage for the bros in corp living...but yea...i doubt i can do much with it...it'd be cool tho...there'd be like a profile section for each brother...and then a calendar with upcoming events or sumtin'...and maybe a bulletin board for posting messages and stuff...like even for posting messages regarding whether an apartment has open room for dinner that night or sumtin'...i think the main hurdle would be participation...i wouldn't wanna create a dead website...then that'd be dumb...so yea...

April 3, 2004 10:35 AM
      Kanon was an amazingly great anime serie...so i decided i should write a review for it...okay...so this bein' my first anime review...jus' bear with me...im mainly writin' from my impressions...so yea...

Title: Kanon
Episodes: 13

Quick Synopsis:
      So...Yuiichi goes to live at his cousin, Nayuki's, house, since his parents went abroad...Yuiichi used to come visit during his breaks but hasn't been back in this snowy city for a long duration of 7 years...a reoccuring motif that he keeps bringing up is that he has no memory of this place...why? Sigmund Freud would say he's repressing his memory due to certain things that happened...wat were those things? is Freud even right in this part? u'd jus' have to watch...but back to the synopsis...so Kanon being a Japanese cartoon...Yuiichi bumps into a whole bunch of cute girls...go figure...and then bein' the inherently nice guy he is...he attempts to help each one of them with their individual problems...and through all that...he starts to peice back his memory...so yea...thatz the gist of it...

Animation: 7.5
      Okay...so my first impression was that because of the way the characters were drawn...it'd be not such an interesting series...like it'd be an anime that only appealed to girls...one of those boring sappy ones...i dunnos why the animation made me feel that way...it jus' did...however...u get used to it...and after gettin' used to it...i noticed that the characters were drawn quite well...
      I think the main reduction in points in this area would be that all the characters seem so young...even Akiko-san (Nayuki's mom) looked like in her early 20's...come on...thatz a mom of a junior in high school...so because the characters look so young...sometimes u end up wonderin' whether some of the romantic situations fit...it doesn't detract too much from the very movin' scenes...but i guess there's still that niggling in the back of ur mind...kinda like..."are they old enuff to do that?" But overall...pretty good...

Sound: 7
      Okay...so i like the main theme song...the feeling the song matches very well with the feeling of the entire series...and in the crucial scenes...playin' up on the theme song added a lot to the emotional feelings...not bein' much of a super intentive listener since i was tryin' to enjoy the overall experience and not be bogged down by analyzing the sounds so much...i dun think i remember any other songs...but i guess that should be good...because the background music isn't supposed to distract you from the overall experience...
      I took off points in this sector mainly due to the voices...the voices do grow on u...especially Ayu's "uguuuu"...but for a lot of the girls...their voices sound so small...kinda like lil' kid like...but thatz not good...cuz they're high schoolers...even tho they look like they're in 8th grade...except for Yuiichi and Mai...they look normal and sound pretty normal...not that Mai is normal...but yea...but jus' like the animation...after watchin' episode after episode...u get used to their voices...

Story: 9
      Surprisingly a very intense, emotional story. I would of given a 10, but the first few episodes where kinda blah. Yea...i realize they needed the first few to jus' kinda set things up and goin'...and i dunnos how they could of made it better...but that was jus' my impression...my interest wasn't really caught till he met Mai in school...but near the end...wow...i was very very moved...their stories are so sad...so so sad...yet there are still bits of humor...mostly at the start of the series...
      At first everything seemed kinda disjointed...but eventually all the peices of the puzzle came together...so dun make a rash judgment till u finish the last episode...it was nice how they tied everything together through certain reoccuring things...however...i think itz possible to only watch certain episodes and still get the whole story of each girl...considerin' every episode mainly focuses on one of the girls...so yea...itz kinda like this order...meet Nayuki, meet Ayu, meet Shiori, meet Makoto, meet Mai...and then...solve Mai's problem, Shiori's problem, Makoto's problem and so on...i think because of the main things goin' on at the very end...the script writers decided not to bring in too much of the side characters...otherwise it might cause minor sidetracks from the main direction of the story...
      One minor thing that could be improved i think...is prolly better explanation of the supernatural things that happen...cuz sometimes u jus' wonder..."how the heck?"...but yea...most of the time u can kinda figure out...but it'd be nice to have a concrete idea...but perhaps that adds to the surrealness of the snowy city...

Characters: 8
      The characters are very well developed...wella...partly cuz each of the girls get whole episodes devoted to them...but yea...I thought they were good...each one not jus' has an unique hairstyle like every other anime girl...but Kanon goes much deeper to that each character has their own individual style...and i think the best thing is...that these girls aren't perfect...cuz then that would be unrealistic...each of them havin' human weaknesses makes everything so much more movin'...and empathisizable...if that's a word...

Value: 8.5
      I can still hear and see the most touchin' scene in my head...so sad...so sad...I definately recommend Kanon...it gets my nomination for best Drama series so far...

March 28, 2004 11:21 PM
      So did i get into Haas? Umm...lemme see how i can say this...cuz u gotta take into consideration the circumstances and things u kno?...and wella...people dun always get wat they want...and sometimes u jus' gotta work with wat ur given...like they say...if life gives u lemons...make lemonade...or perhaps lemon pie...but yea...i got in...
      Dude...when i first got back to my apartment and saw the envelope on my desk i was like so scared...and i picked it up and was like...omgosh...its a thin envelope...and u kno how when u apply for college u want to find the big, fat envelope in ur mailbox...so i was kinda like trippin'...but then i opened it...and the first word was "Congratulations!"...man...u cannot understand what a relief that word was...shoot...
      And thing of all things...after coming back from break...i find that my computer won't boot up properly...the monitor kept on freezing up either completely black or on the checking-file-system screen while i can hear windows booting up in the background through my speakers...turns out my video driver was corrupted or sumtin'...man...computers kinda like a car...u dun drive it for a while and then it starts havin' a variety of ailments...except i was only gone for 1 week...come on...1 week and things start breaking down...shoot...it was all runnin' fine before when i left it on for 3 months...and then 1 week of rest and it goes wack on me...
      So how was my spring break? uneventful...i basically played computer games and then tagged along with my parents to go wherever they were goin'...nuttin' exciting...but itz okay...not everyone leads an exciting life...

March 18, 2004 12:55 AM
      I feel like writing an entry...except im at a loss of what to write...considerin' my brain feels cottony at the moment...can't think of anythin' particularly insightful or interesting...tho it seems to function well in figurin' angles, wind resistance, and power automatically (think Gunbound)...must be sumtin' inherent in all guyz...to be able to play computer games even when they do not have the brain capacity to carry on intelligible conversations...
      In my current deluded state...i think i jus' invented a new dish that can be prepared by highly skilled Chinese cooks...i call it...Brain in the Clouds...or oooh ooh...Head in the Clouds...cut peices of chilled monkey brain served over a layer of cotton candy...never tried monkey brain before...prolly should sometime...and then i can really tell whether it'll go well with cotton candy...if it does...it'll be great...cuz at first bite...u will feel fluffiness from the cotton candy and coolness from the chilled brain...and then...as ur saliva desolves the cotton candy...it'll become a crystallized layer of sugar coating the monkey brain peice...

March 15, 2004 4:47 PM
      Today = so not my day...
      So...i continue to bang my head into everything...in Tae-Kwando...my face runs into another person's forehead...so my right cheek doesn't feel nice...and my teeth get sore when i chew on the right side...that sucks...but that's not all...only a mere 3 hours later...im playin' handball...and the guy in the same court decideds to accidently peg me in the head with the ball...two times in a row...one at the back of my head...and one at the side of my head...and to top the whole day off...it being very hot...i figure i'd get some boba or frozen yogurt after class...well...turns out...both stores were closed because of some stupid friggin' power outage...man...not a good day...somebody make the day better...

March 14, 2004 12:40 AM
      Boardgames are hecka fun...i like saturday afternoons...jus' chill wit da bros and play strategic boardgames...like today...we played Game of Thrones and LOTR Risk...pretty tight games...if u've never heard of 'em, u should check 'em out...great strategy games...LOTR Risk is much more fun than normal Risk cuz of a whole buncha stuff...would take too long to expound on both boardgames here...so u guyz jus' gotta find out for urself...Berkeley brothers got strategy boardgames down...we are so like connoisseurs...

March 13, 2004 2:00 AM
      "Concerning this [thorn] I entreated the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He has said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather boast in my weaknesses that the power of Christ might tabernacle over me." -2 Corinthians 12:8-9

      Dang...wish i could be like the Apostle Paul, so able to accept the Lord's grace...i kno the Lord's grace is sufficient for me in my situations...but i still feel so frustrated with myself...this infa_______ is such a thorn in my side...(Cando, Debs, and Meno should be able to fill in the rest of the word)...why can't it jus' be removed? dang it...i'd rather suffer persecution than have to deal with this...there should be a procedure to precision target that part and surgically remove it from my being...and then put it back when i have a real need for it in the future...

March 7, 2004 8:43 PM
      This is the testimony that i did not share durin' the college retreat because i didn't get out of my chair...
      I am tremendously impressed with what an inheritance we have in the Lord's Recovery...seriously...we are like rich kids...the divine revelation in the entire Bible has been opened up to us...and all we need to do is read...seriously...we have so much wealth right there in front of us...and i guess sometimes that causes us to be spoiled...takin' all of it for granted...like havin' a giant bag of candy on ur desk...u figure itz always gonna be there...so u feel like doin' other stuff than eating it...and then it turns out 2-3 months go by...and u still haven't touched it...so yea...if we go all the time without getting into the riches of the ministry...thatz a sad thing...considerin' how itz so available...and all that time u forego the riches...ur not gettin' fed...cuz God is always there waitin' to dispense...but if ur not eatin'...then itz kinda moot...so...get into the Word and the ministry...and enjoy Christ as the fattened calf who will supply u overabundantly...so that u have the strength to go out of the camp unto Jesus and enter into the veil...to live the proper God-man life...
      If ur a reader of my journal and are not familiar with the above thoughts...feel free to IM me...and i'll be glad to explain...
      On a further note...i clean my glasses with Windex...im so ghetto...

March 3, 2004 1:34 AM
      I bought a jumprope today...itz has weighted handles...so i can work my arms while conditioning...i need to condition more...college has made me less fit...at least conditioning-wise...like in 12th grade...i was like developin' a six-pack...u could almost see it start to emerge...but now i have to start over again...but ultimate frisbee helps condition...
      I dunnos why I stay up so late...itz like an addiction...dang it...
      I wish I had straight hair...curly hair sucks...gets poofy when it grows out...so limiting in hairstyle options...

February 28, 2004 12:29 AM
      The funniest thing happened to me tonight...i was runnin' out of the garage in our apartment complex...and the next thing i kno...my glasses flew off and i fell backwards onto my hands which positioned themselves in reflex...turns out...the garage door was also comin' down at the time...so the garage door and I intersected at a point...namely...my head...good thing itz the front skull...which is supposed to be one of the hardest bones in the body...and hopefully it won't damage my prefrontal cortex...or else i'll really be havin' problems talkin' straight...not that i dun have enuff trouble wit that already...

February 25, 2004 5:38 PM
      The UC Berkeley river looks like chocolate milk...
      Rain is only cool when your inside a building...itz not cool when ur outside walking to class...amazing how water jus' accumulates along a stream of water...normally the thing isn't anything but a trickle...but when it rains...it goes by pretty fast...
      I need more glasses cleaner...gotta visit lenscrafter and buy some...
      I jus' got accepted into the Econ major two days ago...now to see if I get in Haas in March...
      I beat Spiders two times this week...four suits too...yay!...
      Econ 121 is cool...but we're not making any profit in our markets yet...which is not cool...
      I am cooking right now...something that uses 70 cloves of garlic...we need to get a cover for the pan...i use another pan as a cover...thatz so ghetto...
      Good line i thought up today on my way back to my apartment after class..."Since u dun want me hanging around...shoot...i dun need to hang wit u either"...that line has nuttin' to do with []...contrary to expectations...im not always thinkin' about [] 24/7...(so dun worry Debs or Cando)...
      Hahaha...brackets are such a lame way to hold a place for a word...too bad though...

February 16, 2004 5:18 PM
      Dang...long weekends are like lonely...i dunnos where the heck everybody goes...and i dun feel like studyin' either...cuz itz a long weekend...why the heck do i need to study on a long weekend?...and yes...i am bein' a lil' whiney brat right now...i blame it on the weather...stupid rain...makes everything all gloomy...and disuades me from goin' to work out at the RSF...tho i doubt itz open on a national holiday...oh...maybe i should jus' go watch a movie...thatz a good idea...lemme check watz on right now...ok...doesn't seem like anything really good is playin'...that sucks...screw it...

February 13, 2004 7:02 PM
      Today...i earned $19.75 in 1 hour and half playin' an auction simulation game...thatz so much more than minimum wage...heck yea...and it was a game too...tho it wasn't that cool of a game...but hey...who's complainin' with $19.75 extra in their pocket?...not me...       I also realized today is Friday the 13th...which means like absolutely nuttin' to me...there is no such thing as luck...whether good or bad...therefore...u cannot have a day of bad luck...thus...today is jus' like any other day...
      Now tomorrow is not jus' any other day...wella...actually...for me it'll be jus' another saturday...but for others...especially vendors of romantic doo-dads...tomorrow is Florists-and-Candy Stores-Make-a-Ridiculously-Amount-of-Money Day...i bet there'll be like a huge traffic jam on the way to Grizzly Peak...hahaha...the Beast up there can have a field day...chompin' up couples who, unaware of their impending doom, are either appreciating the view or in the process of mashin' their faces together...wat will i be doin'? lemme see...there's computer games, boardgames, the RSF, and more computer games...do i feel depressed? not at all...more bored is all...

February 10, 2004 3:45 PM
      I'm such a terrible conversationalist when itz really needed...like normally...i can talk fine and all...but then when itz important to be in top speakin' form...i find myself inarticulate and uninteresting...and then itz so stupid that u think of the clever, witty, and intelligent things u could of said 20 minutes after u and the person u were talkin' to have parted ways...itz like...gee thanks brain...itz not like i couldn't of used those lines 20 minutes ago...shoot...
      For example:
           Me: "You have class too?"
           Anonymous: "Yup."
           Me: "So where you off to?"
           Anonymous: "Pimentel."
           Me: "Oh really? I'm goin' in that same direction...I have class in...*thinks really hard where my class is at*...Latimer...*inward sigh of relief for remembering*..."
           Anonymous: "For econ?"
           Me: "Yea...how'd u kno?"
           Anonymous: "My friend is takin' that class too..."
           Me: *has nuttin' to say that is relatively interesting and so says nuttin'*

           *slight pause*

           Anonymous: "Actually, I have to meet a friend (can't quite tell what location it was) before class..."
           Anonymous: "So how have you been today?"
           Me: "Good...yup..." (Come on...how stupid an answer is that Jon? 20 min later i realized i could of talked about how i almost missed class cuz i thought it was at 10 when it was really at 9:30...that would of been so much more interesting than jus'..."good"...)
           Anonymous: "Look at this bump on my head...i tied my hair and now itz funny like that..."
           Me: "Haha...yea...*stumbles over the next few words*...my hair is unruly too...i gotta use a *about to say buncha but then realize i dun really use a buncha* some gel to keep it in place..."
           Me: *too long a time after that initial topic* Oh haha...yea...when u first said u had a bump i thought u hurt your head...*mumbles the next phrase*...kinda like those bumps in cartoons..."

           *more pause*

           Anonymous: "You know i broke my phone..."
           Me: "Oh...you dropped it?"
           Anonymous: "No...my display is jus' cracked so i can't see numbers and anything..."
           Me: "Oh that jus' takes away half the functionality of the phone...cuz we dun ever remember numbers anymore...itz all in the phonebook..." (functionlity? Jon u sound so stupid...and duh...wat an understatement that sentence was...you should of jus' said..."man...so that makes it hard to call people...")
           Anonymous: "Yea...i only remember my home phone and my best friend's..."
           Me: "Are you gonna get it fixed soon?"
           Anonymous: "Yea...imma go to the phone store sometime..."

           *some more pause*

           Anonymous: "Okay...i'll see you later Jon..."
           Me: "Oh...you're goin' that way?"
           Anonymous: "Yea."
           Me: "Ok...bye Anonymous."


      Man I suck at convoing...

February 7, 2004 5:10 PM
      I am such a nerd...while in the shower today...i've developed a game theory model to explain the root of my self-called "fickleness"...it is a simplified model involving two choices and a random variable...itz best explained by showing it below...

	Go for cute girl w/ good personality	Wait for hot girl w/ awesome personality
Hot girl does not enter your life	7	-5
Hot girl does enter your life	7	15

      So yea...now for the explanation...no matter wat the chance of the hot girl appearing is...if u go for the cute girl...u will be happy...on a scale of 1 to 10...it'd be like 7...no matter wat...even if the hot girl appears when ur with the cute girl...u still have the utility of 7...however...if you decided to wait for the hot girl and she never appears...then u'll be like a bachelor for life...and most likely thatz not cool...so because ur after work life will involve being lonely w/ a tv dinner in front of some not-very-exciting sitcom...i assign a -5 to that situation...but on the other hand...if u wait and do get the hot girl...happiness level exceeds the boundaries and jumps to 15...so yea...thatz the explanantion...and as u can see...there is no dominant strategy...
      Growing up is too stressful...u see ur peers startin' to get married off left and right...and then...u wonder...it might happen to me in the next couple years...and then u start freakin' out...because of the dilemma illustrated above...or else...u think...man...imma gonna be left behind...like...everybody's movin' on to the next level...this feeling might be similar to that felt by old people when they start hearin' about people their age passin' away...kinda like the following convo...
           A: "so...how's Bob doin'?"
           B: "he's dead."
           A: "oh...wat about Mack?...you know...Zeke's roomate..."
           B: "he's dead too..."
           B: "and so is Zeke..."
           B: "speaking of dead people...ur old roomate in college is dead too"
           *long silence*
           A: "oh..."

February 4, 2004 5:39 AM
      Havin' nuttin' to do...i once again turn to my deep thoughts...on the side of the information highway known as the internet is a barren wasteland littered with the desolate carcasses of abandoned websites, web-blogs, xangas, friendsters, asian avenues, live journals, and so on...sometimes u return to a page...hopin' that the spark of human thought might have returned...but as u check the date of the last entry...March 3, 1825...the realization hits u that it has been utterly, competely, without-a-doubt forsaken...dead as a doorknob...it will forevermore display the same content on ur computer screen...always the same last entry...March 3, 1825...until one day the server shuts down...and u are left only with a lonely "The page cannot be displayed"...to the data packets speedin' down the information highway to the future, the page never existed...

February 4, 2004 12:14 AM
      I am impressed with people's innate humouristic abilities...it makes me so ashamed after reviewing some of my attempts...i guess im not comedian material...but it's ok...i doubt a Board of Directors for a large firm would appreciate stand-up durin' a presentation for the launchin' of a new product...
      Yea...did i mention that i was gonna try for this undergraduate consulting group?...i was lookin' all forward to it and stuff cuz it'd provide good experience...and then i find out they won't give me an interview...man...thatz a bummer...oh well...there's always the comin' summer...that'd be good too...cuz then i'd have even more time to devote to the consulting stuff...so now...i dunnos wat to do with all my free time...im like already ahead in all my important classes...English 117S doesn't count...cuz im takin' that pass/not pass anyway...and the assignments dun seem difficult...only three papers...with the last one takin' the place of the final...cool stuff...
      Maybe i could like hit the gym more often...yes...that sounds good...get more fit and stuff...i am so like outta shape...i think the parachute has been reattached (only Mr. Duddy would understand that comment...but i doubt he reads my webpage)...i'd so die in conditioning...especially the 5 in 60s...but i guess u appreciate it after u finish it...cuz i really doubt u appreciate it durin' the conditioning...especially since u sometimes end up hurling the breakfast u never ate since u had to wake up at 4:00 in the morning...i'd drive to practice on the freeway goin' at 80 mph with all the windows down, the heater up, and blastin' the music...yes...good ol' high school days in the summer before basketball season...

February 3, 2004 12:13 AM
      I have a beautiful semester...(Debs knows what can be substituted for that last word tho...hahahha)...but yea...MW 10-4, TuTh 9:30-3, F 10-2...so awesome...with a lunch break included for everyday...yay for Spring '04!...
      I need to be more flexible...kickin' in Taekwando is hard...especially when u gotta reach higher than ur head...oww...im afraid imma end up pullin' sumtin'...growin' too old...all the joints all cementin' and junk...
      Dang...this entry is gonna be so random...each paragraph's not gonna really be continuous to the one above...so with that disclaimer...paragraph jump...WHOOOSH!!!!
      A couple of u might of heard this already...but im writin' it here so everyone else can read it...why?...i dunnos...maybe it'll spark some comments in my spider-webby comment section...I am fickle because I don't really know what I want...I know what I like now...but i kno that might not be what I will want in the future...so yea...that's why i realize i am fickle...
      And yay! i've been awake in every class so far...must be cuz they start at 9:30 and 10...but yea...no sign of much narcolepsy this semester...i should like get a shown greatest improvement award or sumtin'...

January 19, 2004 10:53 AM
      So...retreat was good...as always...this time we went to Redding...i love these retreats...i always get so much out of it...jus' hopefully the stuff will be retained for more of awhile...but i guess with each retreat...a bit more is constituted into me...welps...this time...we went over the two walks as covered in the Training on the crystallization study of Galations...so in our Christian life...there's two walks...first one is peripateo which is jus' our general walk by the Spirit in everything we do...the main point of this first walk is jus' to enjoy Christ...in everything we do...we can enjoy Christ...and having the first walk as a foundation, there is the second walk, which is stoicheo...a walk as in marching in rank, keeping in step, towards a goal...the difference between the first walk and the second walk is that the second has a goal in view...itz not jus' a ramble in the park...but a regulated walk by the Spirit as the rule towards a goal...by having this second walk, our first walk is strengthened...but we cannot have the second walk without the first...jus' like u can't march if u dun even kno how to walk normally...our enjoyment of Christ in the first walk supplies us to walk the second walk...to be one with the Lord in His work on the earth...
      If we have a realization that we have a purpose in our human life...our living would be completely different...those of us who grew up in the Church...we know what God's purpose is as revealed in His Word and even often take it for granted...even though we know...how much do we really see?...if we truly have seen the Lord's purpose...would we still be living our life the way we do?...we must have a realization that everything we do is of no account...unless it is done in Spirit one with the Lord for the furtherance of His purpose...but to have this seeing is a matter of maturity in life...i for one am so short on this vision...but i can pray that the Lord would reveal more of Himself to me everyday...
      Besides the meetings...we had like a break Sat afternoon...which was also very cool...some of us went sledding an hour away from where we were...dude...that hill was awesome...a decent slope...prolly about 45 degrees...and no trees at all in that one clearing...so u dun have to be afraid of hittin' anything except the ground...but the air cushions we went down on took the impact of those blows...unless u fell off...but still...it was fun...after i came back from the retreat...i realized that i had gotten a bruise on my left hip...i think it was from my cell phone...next time goin' sledding...dun keep stuff in ur pockets...
      Ok...hecka long entry...but last paragraph...tomorrow school starts...should be interesting...good start too...my econ 100B class is all canceled for this week cuz the teacher's wife is expecting twins...so cool...awesome start...especially since that was my 9:30 class...yay!...no early class on tuesdays and thursdays...

January 14, 2004 12:37 AM
      Everybody should get a xanga, live journal, blog, or wateva website for loggin' thoughts...that way i can read about more peoples lives...yea...cuz mine is dull without other people to interact with...itz very hard to come up with a witty repartee in response to a tree...especially since the tree didn't say anythin' in the first place...and i doubt the dog appreciates humor...it jus' cocks its head and looks at me like..."Wat is frick is wrong with him?"...yea...isolation isn't cool after a long long time...maybe thatz why those people go crazy after bein' locked in a small dark cell for tens of years...

January 10, 2004 3:44 AM
      Gunbound is a good game...i think it can appeal to both guyz and girls...for the guyz u pit ur accuracy and calculations against others in utilizing a arsenal of weapons and vehicles to destroy ur opponents...for girls u get to dress up ur chibi avatars and everything is also very chibi-like including the vehicles of destruction and the anime-ish landscape...how the game works?...imagine worms...and then imagine a wide variety of vehicles with different types of ammunition...and then imagine it bein' chibified...and then put it online...thatz Gunbound...why is it chibified?...cuz it was made by korean fobs...so if u go to the official website...www.gunbound.net...u will have a hard time reading the english...unless u can think like a fob...works best if u can think like a korean fob...best of all...the game is free...and it will steal away all ur time...im sure all u college students will appreciate it...hahahaha...
      Ok...i felt like writin' about another paragraph...cuz i dun think itz rite jus' to write an entry about a game...not that itz wrong...it jus' doesn't feel like a real entry...except...i have nuttin' to talk about...hmm...i haven't pondered deep things for a while now...i dunnos...i guess life is jus' on a plateau right now...that does not hold any negative connotations watsoever...and neither does it mean im goin' nowhere...im jus' sayin' i haven't been really experiencing much peaks and valleys...which is good in a way...however...when i run out of things to do...then i become bored...and nobody tells me enuff interesting things...all i want is front row seats...besides...im like airtight safe...i'll jus' take some potshots with inside jokes once in a while...hahahaha...oh yea...back to my life...wella...itz cool...but really...all u people gotta visit more...i've been home for the past week all by myself...seems like every fun thing involves usin' my eyes...wat fun thing is there that u can do by urself that doesn't involve strenuous usage of ur eyes?...and...u people haven't commented for 3 months already...so get with the program...

January 5, 2004 11:04 PM
      I dunnos...things get cooler when u grow up...before...as a kid...i never had like any electronics...the only thing i had was like a normal Nintendo with only Super Mario Bros/Duck Hunt...and that was like kindergarten...now...i have like a Super Nintendo, N64, and a Playstation situated in my house...and all for free...itz like...so cool...man...yea...and i got till the 15th to play more...and i can play all i want...cuz im the boss of the house till the 14th...yea...college life rocks...

December 31, 2003 11:32 PM
      Sometimes i dun really feel like updating, even though i might have a lotta cool things goin' on...even now i still dun feel like updating...except i think itz been a while since i have...like a long while...maybe that'll make this entry a hecka long one...i dunnos...we'll see as i type along...cuz these are my thoughts...and my thoughts are not really subject to any constraints...i pretty much type watever the heck that im thinkin'...so wat ur readin' now is basically wat im thinkin' now...except because im typing...these thoughts would be more coherent...and not as picturisque as my thoughts usually are...yea...sometimes i think panoramas...but when im typin'...i guess my brain jus' focuses on pure thought...like i can hear myself talkin' in my head...even though im not moving my mouth...okay...i think itz time for a new paragraph...
      So...itz New Year's Eve...i dunnos...to me it seems like jus' another night...i would've forgotten that it was New Year's Eve...except i remembered tomorrow is Jan 1, 2004...which is another year...hmm...i guess itz supposed to mean sumtin'...but in the context of daily life...itz jus' another day...hmm...gotta remember to remind myself to write 2004 now on my papers and stuff...i always forget to write the proper year in the first month or two...
      Yay...still plenty more of winter break left...hehe...all u other UC people go back after this week...oh...and u high school people too...hahahaha...hmm...i wonder wat i should do the rest of the time...oh yea...my mom is leavin' for Taiwan tomorrow too...so yup...i am once again in charge of the house for two weeks...too bad most of the Berkeley people went back north...oh wellz...ok...now is a thought jump...yay! i bought Civilization: The Boardgame for only 30 bucks when itz value is 60...heck yea i am so proud of myself...fun game too...over 700 peices and like itz 11 hrs of play time...so many different options to win for the game...fun fun...
      Hmm...i would've of liked to write sumtin' from the Winter Training here...but i dun really feel like it rite now...maybe sum other time...but yea...the messages were good...covered the Book of Galations...hmm...maybe at least i can type out the four banners rite now...

• God's intention is for Christ to be wrought into His chosen people that they may become the sons of God for His corporate expression.
• We need to be rescued out of the present evil age by the revelation of God's Son in us.
• To live the Christian life is to live the processed Triune God as the consummated Spirit.
• God's goal is the divine sonship for His corporate expression as the Household of the Faith, the New Creation, and the Israel of God.

December 12, 2003 9:40 PM
      So...today...last final at 12:30...yay! and then itz fun fun fun...whoo hoo!...then imma go back home on the 18th...and then there's the Winter Training...(Cando you better come down even if ur not attending the training)...and all u guyz can like come visit me and my house...and my really really cool big wolf-dog...
      I learned sumtin' from havin' 3 finals all on the same day...the day of the finals isn't that bad...it's the days before that are bad...when ur all studyin' and worryin' about whether u've studied enuff or not...so yea...thatz what i learned/observed...the actual thing is usually easier than the time u spend prepping for it...but i guess that only applies if u prepped sufficiently...       And then on another note...I'd like to share a hymn wit y'all...mostly for the benefit of those who've never heard it...but even if u have...itz always touchin'...remindin' u of all that our Lord has poured out for u already...causes you to reevaluate your priorities in life...the Lord went to the cross for our sins...gave Himself up willingly to suffer humiliation and death on our behalf...yet all He wants is for us to spend some time with Him...sometimes i ask myself this question (or sumtin' similar)..."The Lord suffered so much for you...and you can't even take 5 minutes out of your day for Him?"...to us, our "sacrifices" (ie our future careers, fun things we could have done) are like a hecka big deal...but compared to wat He has gone through for us, they're actually very miniscule...

      "If I gained the world, but lost the Savior,
      Were my life worth living for a day?
      Could my yearning heart find rest and comfort
      In the things that soon must pass away?
      If I gained the world, but lost the Savior,
      Would my gain be worth the lifelong strife?
      Are all earthly pleasures worth comparing
      For a moment with a Christ-filled life?

      Had I wealth and love in fullest measure,
      And a name revered both far and near,
      Yet no hope beyond, no harbor waiting,
      Where my storm-tossed vessel I could steer;
      If I gained the world, but lost the Savior,
      Who endured the cross and died for me,
      Could then all the world afford a refuge,
      Whither, in my anguish, I might flee?

      O what emptiness!--without the Savior
      'Mid the sins and sorrows here below!
      And eternity, how dark without Him!
      Only night and tears and endless woe!
      What, though I might live without the Savior,
      When I come to die, how would it be?
      O to face the valley's gloom without Him!
      And without Him all eternity!

      O the joy of having all in Jesus!
      What a balm the broken heart to heal!
      Ne'er a sin so great, but He'll forgive it,
      Nor a sorrow that He does not feel!
      If I have but Jesus, only Jesus,
      Nothing else in all the world beside--
      O then everthing is mine is Jesus;
      For my needs and more He will provide."

      -Hymn 1079

November 21, 2003 4:41 PM
      Heck yeah! From here on it's all smooth sailing...finished my last major thing this thursday...woohoo...7 pages of a friggin' term paper for history...man...i spent so much money makin' copies of the reference materials...like prolly a whole 5 dollars...oh well...itz done and over...i think that was my first all nighter for this semester...finished 3 pages at 12...and then from 12 to 7 AM i finished the last four pages...man...productivity seriously dropped early in the morning...itz like wazzit called...the Law of Decreasing Marginal Utility...yea...that's it i think...I am such a good student...applyin' wat i learn in class to real life situations...hahaha...so yea...
      Yesterday was hecka fun...only that one history class...afterward...i came home and played CS...and then played an hour of Settlers...and then took a shower and at 6 went with Doug, Carolyn, and Cando to watch The Cat in the Hat screening for free at Metreon...haha...there were like hecka buncha kids there...from like the Post Office workers or sumtin'...yea...they had sum special privelege for the screening...but hahaha...i wonder wat those mothers were thinkin' once they finished the movie...cuz it was sooo not a kiddie movie...wat do you expect from Mike Myers?...it was hecka funny and very adult...tho i doubt the kids really understood the dirty jokes...hahahaha...Mike Myers makes for such a demented Cat...like in one scene...he picked up a hoe and was like..."You hoe...you dirty hoe..." HAHAHAHAHA...but yea...u watch it for urself...some people in reviews said it sucks...i thought it was funny...and the actress playin' the mother in the movie was hot...she had nice ankles...hahahahaha...

November 8, 2003 5:58 PM
      The Lord so answers prayers...so okay...i was at the RSF playin' some pickup ball today...and when i come out...itz like rainin'...not pouring, but it was decent amount of percipitation...and u kno how like people always catch a cold after they sweat and stuff and then run around in the rain...and yesterday in a perfecting meeting...we talked about how sometimes we're so afraid to pray for things for ourself and only pray for the big things like the Lord's move on earth and the building up of the church...but that it's okay to sometimes ask the Lord for things u want...so i was like...okay...imma try it out...so i was prayin' that i trust in the the Lord to keep me from any sickness and to be like my physical defense and stuff...and then when i was waitin' at a street corner for the light to change...two brothers came up behind with umbrellas and covered me...and i was like...how come the rain's not so bad anymore...and then i looked back and i saw the brothers...and i was like wow...so yea...thatz my real-life experience of the Lord answerin' prayers in such a practical way...

October 28, 2003 5:17 PM
      I would of written like on Lord's Day, but i was busy studyin' for BA10...and then on Monday i was busy readin' catchup for history...so...that means...i am writin' today...
      First item of discussion...College Retreat was great!...even tho the place we went to this time was kinda run-down and dusty...at least they had decent restrooms...which didn't smell funny...so that's good...but yea...the messages were great...Ron Kangas was the speaker this time...and the subject was Christ, the Church, the Kingdom, and the Cross...
      First we see Jesus as the Christ, the Son of the Living God...where "Christ" refers to His commission while "Son of the Living God" refers to His person...and our Christ is all-inclusive to meet all our needs...but this is not just about us, because we see a conflict in the universe, a clash between the authority of God and the authority of darkness...Christ wants to gain a particular people who care that the conflict of authority will be decisvely settled in favor of God, smashing Satan's authority on Earth...
      Our Christ is all-inclusive, but He is also a crucified Christ, who gave Himself up for His beloved Church...the Church is not a devotional society, rather the Church is a group of redeemed people who live in the Lord to carry out His purpose...the goal is to build up the Body of Christ in the local churches with all of us as the builders and the building materials...Christ is building up His Body through us by the growth in life...
      The Church is the increase of Christ in us as life...but the Kingdom is the increase of Christ in us as authority...but this authority is not that of the iron rod, which is reserved for the recalcitrant nations...for us, those who are in His family, the authority of the kingdom is light and life...if we go off the wrong way...we will sense darkness and death...but when we turn the other way and feel light and life...we know we are on the right track...
      But to be in the kingdom, we must take the cross...this does not mean to go seek for sufferings...but rather...it means to do God's will in God's way at God's time...sometimes we try to do God's will in our own way...but what results is so pitiful that it is just as if we didn't do God's will at all...although we may not always know what God's will is at the time, we just pray to set our heart to be under God's will whatever it is...in our natural man, it is hard to let go of all our own plans and opinions...but if we try to press on our own way...we will not feel peace...on the other hand...even if it seems hard at first to take the Lord's yoke...He has said that His yoke is easy and His burden light...when we follow the Lord wherever He will take us...we will find comfort and rest despite our afflictions...
      What I enjoyed was how practical this can be...as a student, I have the responsibilities of a student...it does not mean that I should drop my studies and jus' spend 24/7 out on the gospel or something like that...being a student, I must make the most out of my education and study...we are humans...and humans live a normal human life...outwardly...we don't seem different from the unbelievers...however...inwardly...something is being cultivated and we can set our heart on the Lord...every morning, we can start the day off by consecrating it to the Lord...even in our studies...we don't have to be all prayerful and stuff...we can jus' tell the Lord at the beginning..."Lord...as a student I must study just as everyone else studies...but Lord, be with me in my studying..."
      So yea...that's the general gist of it...there's a whole lot more...but I don't think I can write it all down coherently...but yea...

October 21, 2003 7:24 PM
      Dang I have a penchant for havin' things hit my head...jus' yesterday i banged into the corner of the cupboard door...oww...
      I'm so mad...i like totally got ripped off when buyin' stamps today...I needed stamps and was too lazy to walk all the way to the post office...so i like dropped in some postal store to purchase them...so i was like...can i buy like a book of ten stamps...and the guy goes sure...and i go...so how much does it cost?...and he was like $4.50...so i fork the money over and walk out...then on the way home i was like...wait a minute...10 stamps are only worth $3.70...cuz 37 cents times 10...that friggin' means i got jacked by like almost a whole dollar...that so sucks...frick...wonder how i got into Berkeley in the first place...can't even do some simple multiplication...

October 19, 2003 10:44 PM
      I got pegged in the head with a frisbee yesterday......funz......whoopee......can't u see how estatic i am?...
      On another note...I forgot wat my note was gonna be...i jus' remember I had three subjects to talk about...but i can't remember the last two...oh well...i guess i'll talk about sumtin' else then...like how business classes are so cool...the professors give out free food and money...yea...like real money...last lecture the professor gave out 16 dollars...but there was the potential that he could've given out 46...but one of the kids didn't get the $30...too bad...and the GSIs too...mine gave out quarters and Mars bars to demonstrate the New York Stock Exchange last discussion...i got one of the Mars bars...they were bought in New York too...yea...our professors and GSIs fly every doin' business while teachin' on the side...or vice versa...

October 10, 2003 5:36 PM
      I find it amazing how music can bring one such a strong sense of nostalgia. I was watchin' SNL on comedy central today, and even though it was like an old rerun from back durin' the OJ trials, it was still hecka funny. I love SNL. So funny. Well anyway, their guest music group for that show was TLC. My first memory of TLC was when like an older Brother, who babysatted me and my siblings durin' like the summer training, explained wat the name TLC stood for when Waterfalls came on on MTV. So durin' the mid-show time of SNL, when TLC came on, like memories of my late elementary, early junior high days came flooding back. And like i totally felt a pang of sadness that those times had already passed. Kinda feels sad that things dun stay the way they were. That was like the time of innocence, not so many worries really. But yea, I was like a fool back then.
      But speaking of SNL, haha, those Deep Thoughts by Jack Handey are so funny. I wish my deep thoughts were as funny as that. Like the one I watched today went like, "I have a good sentimental idea for a movie. There's a parrot raised in a nest of eagles. But the parrot cannot act like the eagles. So the eagles laugh at it. Then to keep the movie from becoming boring, show some pornography. Then we go to the parrot flying in the sky like an eagle. Then its sees two other parrots, who are really its parents, and swoops down for the kill...Then some more pornography." Hahahaha...i love how those things are so random like that. Like itz corny, but so funny.
      Things have been pretty good recently. I'm glad that i'm finished with four out of my five midterms already. I did fairly well on the first three, now i jus' hope i did the same on this last history midterm. Otherwise, I'd have to go through the hassle of changing the class to a pass/not pass. Oh well, at least there's still that option to take. Hmm...yea...nuttin' else at the moment.

September 20, 2003 12:00 AM
      So in small-group today, someone asked the question, "So how do we tell the difference between the Lord's speaking to us and what we want to do?"...i thought it was a great question, one that i wasn't always too clear on either...but the fellowship from all the saints were great...the main point isn't figuring out what the right answer is really, but the whole purpose is to go and fellowship with the Lord...like...it doesn't so much matter what course of action to take, but more on that you have spent time contacting the Lord...but you have to keep in mind the Word too...the Lord isn't gonna tell you to like steal or cheat and stuff...to know the Lord's speaking to you better, you have to get into the Bible...but not just reading it like a legal text...when you enjoy the Lord in His Word...something of it is deposited into you...and the Lord often speaks to us through what is deposited in us...if we dun get into the Word much...the Lord has a limited vocabulary to speak to us...in addition...if ur not sure whether something is the Lord's leading or not...fellowship with the Body will help guide us as well...so yea...main point is jus' that we turn to the Lord...and even if we later find out that something wasn't really according to the Lord's leading...the Lord can still work through that to gain us more...

September 14, 2003 12:00 AM
      I totally knew it...i am so a Republican...yup...told ya bein' at Berkeley won't convert me to become a radical leftist...

Republican - You believe that the free market will
take care of most things, but that the
government should be there with moderate
taxation to provide for national defense and
enforcing morality. Your historical role model
is Ronald Reagan.

Which political sterotype are you?
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September 13, 2003 12:29 AM

Top 10 Reasons Why You Just Ate a Loogie

10) You are on a stranded island without any sustenance.
9) It had corn kernels in it, and you don't like to waste good food.
8) You're a dog and you eat everything...even your own feces.
7) You're from the planet Alpha-Omicron X, and on that planet, hash browns are called "Loogies."
6) You were drunk. Like lampshade on your head while standing topless on the dresser drunk.
5) The waiter didn't like you, because you took too long ordering and didn't tip him well the last time you were there.
4) You like the taste of 'em.
3) In Yugarstupidstan, it's considered a delicacy.
2) You were staring at the sky in awe when someone hocked one out the window four stories above you.
1) You are just one very sick person, who needs to go get professional help. Really. Like I mean now.

September 12, 2003 11:17 AM
      Oh my gosh...I so love System Restore...so friggin' awesome...seriously...my computer like suddenly rebooted yesterday when i was like downloading updates...and then a whole bunch of system files got truncated...and even though I had cds for the drivers...sumtin' jus' wasn't working right...so my audio devices were shot...and my screen keeps appearing crooked everytime it starts up...but then i jus' figured out...why not use system restore...and so thankfully...there was a checkpoint rite before the mass truncation of junk...whew!...i am so relieved...Screw it tho...i still need the registry thing for my Norton Antivirus so i can do updates to protect my comp...jus' yesterday i cleaned out the W32.welchia worm from two infected files after using a free online virus scanner...i didn't even realize the friggin' worm was there...       And dang the weather is hot...

September 7, 2003 12:11 AM
      Hmm...i jus' realized sumtin'...my deep thoughts end up not being very deep considerin' this whole page is open to the entire public...which basically means that i only write general stuff...like nuttin' really really deep and personal...unless im very mad or excited or junk...but yea...ends up havin' no musings on personal things...so i decided to remedy that...imma eventually gonna make links to personal stuff on another page which'll require a password to get in...and then i can choose who to give the codes out too...but yea...dun feel like doin' it rite now...but i'll get around to it sumtime...so yea...
      On another note...second week already ended...classes are decent so far...workload doesn't seem too bad yet...and hecka BA 10 is like the funnest class i've ever taken in my whole college career at this point...interesting stuff...and the professor lectures well...if u ever get to Berkeley...u should take that class...awesome class so far...hmm...nuttin' much else to say now...at least not general stuff...

August 25, 2003 12:50 PM
      Welcome week was fun...but it prolly could of been funner if more people were aroudn the student center during the day...i get so much hecka free stuff from Caltopia...and two free massages...heck yea!...wella...welcome week is over...and school started today...imma takin' 19 units this semester...letz see...UGBA 10, Stat 21, Econ 100A, Astro 10, and History 158C...yupz...already had two classes...first day isn't bad...cuz itz a bunch of admin stuff...i still have two more in the afternoon...like startin' at 3...dang it...i have totally mornin' classes everyday again...and i got friggin' two hours gaps everyday from 12 to 2...and an one hour gap from 10 to 11...so sucky...and i have a late class on friday...that sucks too...ah wellz...maybe next semester i'll have a better schedule...

August 19, 2003 10:26 PM
      I would of written on the 16th a few days earlier but I haven't been really able to get Internet access...jus' got it a while ago so im writin' now...seriously...the 16th was kinda wack for me...so like i was gonna leave for the airport at 2:30...and i was like gettin' the house ready and stuff...so i went around locked all the doors and windows...and then i decided to take the trash out...it would of been like for less than a minute so i didn't bring my keys with me...but outta the blue...some wind jus' like blew shut the side door...which made me think i was hecka locked outside...so i like got a ladder and climbed onto my roof...broke the window mesh to the upper restroom bathroom...and like wriggled headfirst through the small opening onto the toilet seat and crawled in...and guess wat?...friggin' the garage was wide open...i could of jus' like walked a few feet around the corner and got in jus' fine...sheesh...that was like so retarded...but i guess itz all good...cuz things balanced out...like i got to the Oakland Airport after my flight and was like waitin' for a bus to take me to the Metro station when some sister, who was gonna pick up some other sister, saw me and gave me a ride back to Berkeley...now that was cool...
      Wella...when i got here...i basically jus' spent my first two days unpacking and stuff...and so not much happened...bought some books...got settled in...oh...i went and watched Pirates of the Caribbean by myself today...it was pretty good...hmm...wat else to say for now...i think i had a lot to say...but i can't remember anymore...maybe tomorrow...

August 13, 2003 6:05 PM
      I am BACK!...yay...dude...seriously...the stewardesses in first class must think itz a hog farm or sumtin'...as soon as ur on the plane...they're tryin' to feed u...and they keep on feedin' u...until u feel like ur about to burst...like for dinner...itz like appetizer...which was pretty big dish...then a big bowl of soup...and then bread...and then the main course...and then fruits and then desert...and then tea or coffee...shoot...i dun think most people can finish everything in the whole friggin' meal...but the awesome thing is...the chairs can totally recline...not jus' like an angle...but like 180 degrees flat...so u can like totally sleep good...but yea...
      And oh my gosh...my sister is like seriously retarded or sumtin'...she's left for two weeks in charge of the house...and ends up shearing off the right back wheel bumper protector thing of the Landcrusier...shoot...also...the pool's now friggin' green and pretty dried up...u can't go swimming in that thing...dude...even when i was left in charge of the house for like a whole summer...the only thing wrong was that the grass was kinda dry...but not like dead...

August 10, 2003 4:55 PM
      Wow...i've been writing a lot in this thing...maybe itz cuz im in Taiwan with nuttin' better to do than work and watch tv...but yea...i've felt the urge to add a new addition to my webpage...im not sure wat yet tho...i was thinkin'...perhaps a picture gallery with comments by me and stuff...but then again...i dun have a digicam of my own to take pictures with...and as of now...i can't come up with anythin' else yet...so...this is where i ask you...do you have any suggestions? if u do...please write them in the comment area...all suggestions, ideas, innovative thoughts are appreciated...and not jus' for an expansion of my website...but also if u have any suggestions for improving the look...or u feel sumtin' really sucks...or if something u like more of...so on...i will read over all comments and if i really like ur idea...u'll be sure to see it employed...with props given in my update box on my main page...aight...that's all i wanted to say for now...
      Oh...and i appreciate all y'all who've written comments to me...now i kno that people actually read these things...and that im not jus' typin' for a cactus weed...yea...those bally thingies that always roll by in those Western movies...but yea...u dun have to jus' stop at one comment...feel free to comment as much as u want...about anything u want...u can even comment 60/12/24/7 if u feel like it...the more the merrier...

August 7, 2003 5:25 PM
      I'm almost goin' home...i'm almost goin' home...heck yea...only 3 more working days...and then itz back home for 3 days before goin' up to Berkeley...hehehehe...only 3 days in SoCal...i dun think u can catch the gingerbread man in 3 days...and then after that...im safe up north...hehehehe...and in Berkeley...welcome week!...yay!...welcome week is fun...itz where u do hecka nuttin' but everybody is pretty much back at school...and then there's Caltopia where u get free food and drinks and all this other free junk from all the stands and stuff...
      Hmm...i hardly saw any movies this summer...in fact i only saw one...and there were so many other good choices out there...itz okay...hopefully there'll be some more left durin' welcome week...fun...maybe i'll see a movie or two each day...wow...my eyes are so gonna crash...i think they have already...with all this photoshop usage to edit out the background from the scooters...man...talk about eye-strain...why do pixels have to be so friggin' small...and shoot...if the magic wand worked better...i wouldn't have to go in and edit out all the background by hand in order to preserve a non-pixlely shape...but at least all i have left is to edit those photos...everything else is pretty much done...oh...and if u wanna check out the photos...the link is here:

August 2, 2003 12:18 PM
      Yeeessss!!! Finally took care of that dang cable thingy...and without a hitch too...that's another load off my back...and i feel so accomplished...i also finished designing the set of posters to be used for that expo thing...im actually proud of the work...i personally think i did a good job...why am i workin' on a Saturday?...cuz Taiwan people are crazy...the friggin' government made some idiotic law requiring everybody who has a job to work every other Saturday for half day...wat kinda idiot legislature proposed it? sheesh...friggin' make me lose half a saturday for relaxin'...
      So...continuing from yesterday...i've come up with some new creative stuff...last night I was like watchin' Chuckie's Bride and stuff...and in the end...like Chuckie's Bride gave birth to a lil' bloody vicious baby doll...that was really gross actually, but that's beside the point...aniwaz...i figured...if lil' evil voodoo possessed serial murderin' dolls can have babies...the toy industry will like reduce so much cost...seriously...think about it...if Mattel went and got all their Barbie and Ken dolls voodoo possessed...and then had them goin' at it everyday...u'd have like a whole line of baby Barbie's and Ken's without hardly any production costs...and plastic babies are more resilient than real ones...so u dun have to spend much time and money in baby care either...Mattel would like make so much bank...except...the problem is that if all the baby dolls turn out like the one in Chuckie's Bride...u'd have a lotta freak murders goin' on...which would be such a liability...ah well...that was such a good entreprenuerial project too...
      Hmm...thatz enuff creativity for today...cuz i gotta go again...till next time...*Twilight Zone music plays in the background* Muahahahaha...

August 1, 2003 5:49 PM
      I've been inspired by creative people to give a filter change to my creativity level. I have discovered that over the years...my creativity has been deteoriorating...in recent months i often find myself recycling conversation topics and jokes...like i'll say sumtin' creative to someone...and then say again to someone else...and then again to a third someone else...and so on...sure...people may still think im interesting...but that's because they dun follow me around all day and hear me say the same things over and over and over...kinda like a cow...chewing the cud over and over and over...man...those things must have like no taste buds or sumtin'...itz like chewin' the same peice of gum for like 24 hours...
      I remember when i was younger...back in the ol' days...i thought of so many cool stuff...like like...umm...yea...see...i've deteriorated so much that i can't even remember my own thoughts...thatz prolly why i made this archive...hmm...but yea...i had so much time to sit around and think funky things as a kid cuz my mom would drag me along to go grocery shopping and mall shopping and watever shopping...and like every time it'd be like a hecka lotta hours...where i had nuttin' better to do than to churn my thoughts...i had like a lotta creative juices tho...itz like...i had so much i could've boxed em up, stuck a straw on the side of the carton, and sold em to like Vons or sumtin'...yea...then everybody can drink Jon's Creative Juices for lunch with their peanut butter sandwich while stuydin' the puke-green colored turtles on the Taiwan counterfeit lunch box...u could tell it was counterfeit...cuz in big ugly orange letters it would say..."Teenage Mutant Ninja Tortles"...yea...thatz not a typo..."Tortles"...c'mon...because of that...all the Fob kids get made fun of in elementary school...yea...i had traumatic experiences...u got a problem wit dat?...
      But aniwaz...I've veered off track...so in an effort to boost my creativity...i've been thinkin' stuff...but oh wait...i have to go home now...cuz my dad wants to...so i'll finish next time...aight...that's all...

July 28, 2003 6:35 PM
      Ok...i dun see why everybody can go and write comments in everybody else's xangas...and like...nobody bothers writin' anythin' in my webpage...itz not like itz any more of a hassle...itz very easy to write comments with the link i established on the top of this page...so why not?!?!...u guyz are like all discriminatory or sumtin'...jus' cuz mines not a Xanga..."Oooooh...can't write in Jon's comment area...cuz he's not xangaing"...fine...watever...i'll write comments to myself...
      This thing in Taiwan is pretty awesome...i am gonna be able to write so much stuff down...especially now since im in charge of this project to create posters, a powerpoint presentation, and a CD catalogue for like this Expo in Europe or sumtin'...and im also in charge of creating the company webpage...this is sooo gonna score brownie points for like initiative and leadership and stuff...yea i kno i kno...i've been rantin' and ravin' about this job for like the past few entries already...but this is so like wat i need for my resume...downside is...im stuck in a humid country...and like i really dun have any friends here...so my day basically goes like this: wake up, eat breakfast, leave for work at 7, lunch break for an hour at 12, work till 5, stay around till my dad is ready to leave like around 6 or 7, go home and eat, wash the dishes, take a shower, watch like tv till 10 or 11, and then sleep till like 6:30 the next day...yea...thatz my life rite now...only like 2 more weeks to go of this...and then i get to back home...yay!...
      But like...itz kinda incovenient bein' here...cuz like itz kinda hard to pay the Fall Semester Registration thing...considerin' im not in the States to get it and pay it...and that goes for my corporate living rent as well...which is like due before i get back home...and rent went up to...like from 325 to like 400...sheesh...everything is goin'...rent and tuition and stuff...shoot...but yeah!...gotten room assignments...and i got 206...which is a pretty clean apartment...whoo hoo!...and my housemates are pretty chill too...aight...seems like it'll be a good year...as far as living arrangements go...so yea...FRIGGIN' WRITE SOME COMMENTS GUYZ!!! THATZ WAT THE FRIGGIN' COMMENT AREA IS FOR!!!!...sheesh...

July 25, 2003 5:04 PM
      Welps...I've been working for 5 days already...dang...this is gonna look so good on my resume...Internship at an International Technological Company...typing up invoices, shipping orders, translating project specifications from English into Chinese and so on...heck yea...but yea...it's so friggin' hard typin' in Chinese...takes like forever...but im startin' to get the hang of it...still not as fast as if i'm typin' in English...but that's cuz i've been typin' in English ever since i first got a computer...so yea...
      Mosquito bites haven't been so bad...the only time i've been bitten a lot was when my dad made me go with him to the lil' plot of land we own to pick lychees...dude...those mosquitos had a feast...i had like 5 bites on my left arm...2 on my right...1 on my right ear...and 1 on my neck...if i wasn't wearin' pants im sure i'd get like 5 or 6 more on each leg or sumtin'...shoot...oh...btw...did u kno that all the blood-suckin' mosquitos are female?...yea...the guyz dun suck ur life blood...only the girls do...

July 17, 2003 8:43 AM
      Imma in Taiwan rite now...so i dun have my computer...thus...i can't input the previous entry at the moment...so imma skip a slot and continue with this one...this isn't gonna be on the profile first before becoming archived here...because...umm...oh yea...'cuz if i forget to transfer it from the profile to this place...i won't be able to get it anymore...considerin' how im in Taiwan and the profile thing stays with the computer like the other AIM preferences unlike the buddy list which is saved somewhere in the AIM database...
      But yea...I think i need to start updatin' more often...but itz hard to get motivation considerin' i have no clue whether anyone reads these or not...considerin' nobody EVER writes any comments...come on guyz...i even made a user-friendly comment log...sheesh...i kno u guyz really have that much time to waste...hmm...and maybe i'll jus' start loggin' my entries directly into the archives jus' to force u guyz to come here and read em and so perhaps maybe u'll click on the enter a comment link...but i guess if i do that...this won't be an archive anymore...hmm...but i guess it still can...jus' not the recent entry...ohh...i kno...i can like make a seperatin' line between the new entry and the old ones...yea...i am so genius...besides...directly typin' the entries here in HTML form allows me that much more typin' space...dun need to be confined by the friggin' word limit on the profiles...
      And hmm...i would really like to comment on people's Xangas...but imma not jus' gonna make an account so i can comment...'cuz i have my own lil' thing goin' here...so i guess i can jus' comment via AIM whenever they sign online...and so wat if mine doesn't integrate seamlessly with my friends' Xangas...they can always jus' find my page by lookin' up my profile...considerin' how im online that much...so yea...
      Boy am i glad i found a computer...it makes life here in Taiwan tolerable...now i won't need to worry about how my hotmail box is overflowin' after every 2 days with junk and i have a place to do my registration of Phase II for fall classes...another extra benefit...i dun feel compelled to watch television 24/7 anymore...and i seem to have built up some sort of endurance or immunity to Taiwan as i've gotten older...it doesn't seem as intolerably humid and i dun think i've been bitten by a mosquito yet...i'm extremely surprised...but that doesn't mean i dun need the AC still...seriously...the AC is ur best friend here...needless to say...the food here is still good...and im amazed at some of sanitation improvements in the airports...the restrooms are very decent now...i was like...wow...
      Dude...this is like the longest entry ever on this archive...but i guess that's also cuz i have a whole day to spend...hmm...i wonder why kitty hasn't come online yet...it is 6 PM over there in California now...dang...i've been typin' for like 15 min already...welps...i guess this is all for now...i dun really feel i have any other things to spew out...

July 4, 2003 12:08 AM
      It's 4th of July...tho that doesn't really mean much to me...why can't 4th of July be durin' the school year in like September or sumtin'...then thatz one extra holiday off school...but yea...watz wit all the short profiles these days?...wella...i dun care wat other people are doin'...im still stickin' wit my deep thoughts...cuz they're jus' that profound...u kno?...haha...i'm in the middle of the Summer Training rite now...itz on 2 Corinthians...about the New Covenant Ministry and the New Covenant Ministers...good messages...i always gets stuff outta the trainings tho i sometimes doze off...hehe...

June 23, 2003 2:31 AM
      Dagnabbit...why can't they consolidate job postings and internships better...so friggin' hard to find em...gotta wade through a whole load of junk on the internet to try to find seemingly decent job postings...so sucks...if all else fails...im seriously stickin' Summer School of Truth on my resume...but aniwaz...i haven't seen any of the summer movies yet...dang it...there's some i wanna see in the theatres...if i dun hurry up...they might be taken out...oh yea...i am also currently tryin' to discover the meaning of a "nork"...so far...i have a suspicion that itz a cross between a "nerd" and a "dork"...but...if u kno...please contact BluePig...

June 16, 2003 11:53 PM
      I can't quite find a AIM icon to fit my mood rite now...so i jus' decided to use this interesting one...wit likes itz mouth all sown up and stuff...oww...that must've really hurt like heck...this summer is goin' by too fast...seems like i've been relegated a lotta mental chores to do at home even tho itz summer...and i feel like...this is the friggin' summer...lemme jus' kick back and chill...itz all the crazy people's fault who go out and take 22 units durin' the summer...friggin' drivin' up the standards that get parents all worryin' that ur not bein' productive enuff...dude...back in the days...kids jus' chilled by the river and stuff...and i dun mean so back that they had to milk the cow...

June 3, 2003 7:45 PM
      Stupid stupid cold...all the stupid weather's fault...hot one day and cold the next...now i have to wait till i get better to go swimming...so sucks...anyways...job huntin' is slow these days...haven't heard word from a single place...but i guess itz only been a week...so maybe they still need time to look over applications or sumtin'...ah wellz...so yea...if any of u guyz hear of a good job down south...lemme kno k?...i need sumtin' to stick in my resume so they won't think i jus' played games all summer long...

May 26, 2003 7:15 PM
      It's time to jus' sit back and chill...the school year is now over...oh wait...some of you still have school huh?...too bad...haha...but yea...prolly go find a summer job soon...and write a bunch of essays for scholarships and stuff...upon reflection of this past school year...i feel that i need to pick up the slack next semester...very much so...oh btw...i'm back down south...so all ya'll can see me around again...and for all those up north...come down and visit me...or jus' come down for the training and i'll see you u guyz there...maybe u guyz can come to my house for lunch too or sumtin'...and yea...i got two main summer resolutions...swim and play more tennis...seriously...i need some conditioning...and a tan...yup...

May 23, 2003 4:10 AM
      Finals is almost over...one last one on Saturday...which will signify the culmination of all the math classes I have taken in my life...amazin' huh...from "this line is called one...repeat with me...one" to "Probability Density Functions can be found upon deriving the CPF"...almost makes one teary-eyed...the last math class ever...and it's drawing to an end...
      On a side note...though i have a long fuse...it somewat pisses me off when people get all moody and then expects me to take care of things when i have no clue wats going on...and cuz they dun wanna deal wit it themselves they get even more pissy when i dun comply...people can try askin' nicely instead of orderin' me about like its my job or sumtin'...and i dun care if people are moody or wateva...doesn't give em a right to do wateva the heck they want...

May 8, 2003 7:28 AM
      I'm gettin' too old for pullin' all nighter...like i only slept 50 min since yesterday...workin' on a stupid website...and like i didn't even get past 2:00 before my body started to involuntarily twitch...i feel terrible...my gosh...welps...if u wanna see wat made me stay up so late...or early considerin' itz mornin' now...here it is:
UC Virtual Zoo

May 1, 2003 5:58 PM
      Interviews were kinda like somone shinin' a flashlight straight into your eye, when u've been in a dark cave for like a month...the interview was pretty heavy speakingwise...

     "If Thy mind and mine should differ,
      Still pursue Thy way;
      If Thy pleasure means my sorrow,
      Still my heart shall answer, "Yea!"
      'Tis my deep desire to please Thee,
      Though I suffer loss;
      E'en though Thy delight and glory
      Mean that I endure the cross."

      -Hymn 626 Verse 4

April 22, 2003 1:15 AM
      My gosh...the Warcraft III Mod for CounterStrike is so much fun...all u guyz gotta try it out...oh...and...i think im goin' blind...seriously...like im all walkin' down the street and stuff...and i can't even recognize people my friends until they literally come up to my face and say "Hey Jon!"...and then im like..."oh...Hey!"...
      *As a side note...i jus' wanna thank all of you for bein' so concerned about my foot...i so appreciate all the support and care and all...now i can live secure knowin' that there's always people out there lookin' out for me...
      (All that after the star is sarcasm)...shoot...nobody cared for jack...hehe...but itz ok...itz not a big deal...=P

April 11, 2003 1:39 AM
      Friggin' A...I stabbed myself with the friggin' shower door...dude...it hurt like heck and i was like all bleeding over myself while takin' the shower...stupid friggin' metal edge went right ahead and dug a friggin' one inch gash in my friggin' foot...now my foot's all wrapped up with a band-aid and a bandage...shoot...man...this so friggin' sucks...i'd take a hammer to that door and show it watz up...except then all the water would dribble out next time i take a shower and then the floor would flood...which would really suck cuz then u get mold like growing in the carpet or in the corners or sumtin'...

April 4, 2003 1:41 AM
*Updated by popular demand*
      Hehe...u kno...people have like a set list of conversation topics...for lack of originality or sumtin'...that's why people end up bein' asked a billion times the same questions...like what school they go to...what major they're studyin'...how was their spring break...etc...but i dun blame em...cuz i guess it is hard to come up with somethin' unique and original to say to every person...hmm...i wonder if there's a book out there titled..."Interesting Conversation for Dummies"?...that would be like a hit bestseller or sumtin'... Oh and...dude...my deep thoughts are just as interesting as Strong Bad's emails...if u dun kno who he is...go to homestarrunner.com...

March 13, 2003 11:57 PM
      Two days ago...as I was heading to class in the morning...a tree tried to kill me...i kno...sounds incredible...but it's the truth...k...so i was like walkin' along...mindin' my own business...and then outta the blue...the tree tries to stone me with this huge acorn...and it landed like *Klunk!*...yea...not a soft thud...but with a capital "K"...it was a good thing it missed by 2 feet...or else i'd have gotten a concussion and then would have missed lecture too...stupid tree...i didn't do nuttin' to u...

March 9, 2003 10:56 PM
      Normal dayz...still kinda hopin' some nice person would send me back my wallet tho...but i guess thatz a lost cause...dude...u kno those AC Transit stickers?...one sticker costs like $60 to replace...for one friggin' shiny blue square sticker...hmm...i need sumtin' to fill in the time void i have now that finals are done...CS, Warcraft III, and Anime dun quite work after a marathon of them...ah wellz...guess that can't be helped...

February 29, 2003 10:50 PM
      I am so friggin' pissed...i think my wallet dropped outta my pocket on the bus...friggin' a...thatz like 2 credit cards, 1 ATM card, 1 UC student ID with PIN number, 2 Acaciawood student IDs, 1 Driver's License, 3 Library cards, $20 sumtin' dollars, my social security number, my insurance number, my selective service number, 2 boba-stamp cards (with 1 completed), my hair-cut stamp card, my Hoagies-stamp card, my ABA member card, a bunch of ATM & credit-card receipts, a BART ticket worth a few cents, a small collection of fortune cookie strips, one or two flattened pennies for my collection, and whole bunch of other miscellaneous stuff...dagnabbit...this so sucks...

February 10, 2003 12:46 AM
      Hey...guess wat i can do with my tongue?...i can tie a cherry stem into a knot...hehe...my tongue got skills...wait...lemme rephrase that...my tongue got MaD sKilLz...hehe...cuz u kno wat about people who can tie a cherry stem knot with their tongue dun u?...yea...that...uh huh...haha...oh yeah...ok...'nuff about my really really skillful tongue...haha haha ha...time for me to go to bed...i got class tomorrow morning at 9...

February 3, 2003 11:56 PM
      Woohoo...i so got $190 over the weekend...that is like so awesome...aniwaz...classes are cool...i especially look forward to my classes at the end of the day on Mondays and Wednsdays...not cuz they're at the end of the day...but cuz of other stuff...haha...ooh ooh...and for all you people who read my profile...click on the Join my Army link once every 24 hrs...k?

January 25, 2003 1:27 AM
      End of the first week of school...not too bad...cuz last semester i took 18 units...but this semester im takin' only 14...so it feels like when u take the ankleweights off...and u kno wat?...my math teacher looks like a cross between Mel Gibson and one of those funky lookin' theater vampires from the movie Interview with the Vampire...but yea...i need to start gettin' back into a decent shape...a month and more of no exercise is no good...

January 16, 2003 9:00 PM
      Yay...school's not starting yet...still some more break left to squander...i got sick right before i left Taiwan...like on the 13th...but im feelin' a lil' better now even if im still sick...seriously tho...havin' a sore throat and headache on the airplane isn't fun...oh...and near the end of my stay in Taiwan...i thought of this...

      How inconsistent is man...
            and fickle his soul...
      As the wind changes...
            so his thoughts flow...
      He feels this one day...
            the next he feels that...
      Temperamental man that he is...
            to one could never hold fast...

December 17, 2002 4:22 PM
      Funniest thing happened to me yesterday...i was like takin' my laundry outta the dryer rite?...and so im stickin' my hand in to pull out my clothes...and guess wat i pulled out?...out of all things...blue panties...yes...panties as in women's undergarments...i was like..."Wat da frick?"...but hehe...dat was interestin'...aniwaz...last two finals on thursday...and then im done...flyin' down south for winter break...yay...more sleep...

December 1, 2002 6:40 PM
      Welps...imma back from SoCal...it was totally like a scavenger hunt at the conference...tryin' to see how many people i kno were there...hehe...but yea...it was cool...my mom prepared a lotta good food too jus' cuz my dad and I had come home...yea...and i brought up my scooter too...but the stupid charger seems broken or sumtin'...argh...so itz kinda outta commission at the moment...too bad...i was lookin' forward to usin' it...

November 27, 2002 2:32 AM
      Yay...flyin' home today...yup...yup...gonna be gettin' my electric scooter...so cool...so cool...who wants a test ride?...hehe...Thanksgiving is so awesome...school days off...and my professors are so nice...cancelin' classes for holidays...so i can sleep in...itz so tight...
      Hmm...i've jus' noticed...i dun use the smiley faces =) as abundantly as i used to...i think itz been like that ever since like summer '01...guess certain situations sap one's smiles...so i unconsciously had been conserving them...hmm...i am like so mental...using psychoanalysis to explain why i dun use the smiley faces as much in IMs...

November 23, 2002 9:47 PM
      I'm jus' stupid...why bother hoping if hopes are gonna be dashed every single time...like today...kept consolin' myself that it doesn't matter if ur sittin' alone studyin' on a saturday...which is kinda pathetic in itself...but aniwaz...like i told myself...it doesn't matter...u kno why?...cuz at 6:00...it'll all be fine when that door opens and u get a glimpse of gold...yea...i kept tellin' myself that...but then when the clock struck 6:00...and then 6:15...and then 6:30...it turned out that they were jus' empty consolations...

     "Forfeit the game
      Before somebody else
      Takes you out of the frame
      And puts your name to shame.
      Cover up your face,
      You can't run the race,
      The pace is too fast...
      You just won't last..."

November 18, 2002 9:29 PM
The Pencil by BluePig

      It was horrible. Truly, truly horrible. There was snot everywhere covering everything. The pencil was still there, stuck tight to the spot where it pierced the wall. Green mucus was still dripping off the end. Drip…drip…drip…Forming a little puddlely pile on the carpet. The whole room was a mess, and lying blacked out in the middle of the whole things was Bob. Bob had just accidentally poked himself up the nose with his pencil and had then sneezed hard...very hard.

November 16, 2002 5:18 PM
      Owww...my left ankle hurts like heck...i dunnos if itz jus' sore from playin' 3 hours of basketball...or whether i really sprained it...still...itz friggin' annoyin' to walk...hrm...i wonder where everybody is...seems like everybody's off doin' their own thing...ah wellz...

     "And maybe when the night is dead,
      I'll crawl into my bed, staring at these 4 walls again.
      I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time.
      Everyone's got somewhere to go,
      And they're gonna leave me here on my own.
      And here it goes...

      I'm just a kid
      And life is a nightmare.
      I'm just a kid
      I know that it's not fair.
      Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone
      And the world is having more fun than me."

November 13, 2002 11:38 PM
      It only hurts more when i stay...but i can't bear to tear myself away...why the frick do i have to take it so friggin' hard...why can't i be like other guyz and shrug it off...itz not supposed to be a big deal, cuz there's more fish in the sea rite?...but i dun want jus' some other fish...

     "It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you.
      But when we are apart I feel it too,
      And no matter what I do I feel the pain
      With or without you...

      Tearin' up my heart and soul...
      When we're apart I feel it too,
      And no matter what I do I feel the pain,
      With or without you..."

November 12, 2002 3:05 PM
      Hehe...itz funny...i had more fun yesterday on somebody else's birthday than on mine...haha...but itz all good...hmm...wat should i do for the rest of the day?...that baked turkey sandwich w/ cranberry sauce from Cheese n' Stuff is pretty good...very delicious...mmm...maybe i'll get some more tomorrow...hehe...

     "Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling...
      Do you feel my heart beating?
      Do you understand?
      Do you feel the same?
      Am I only dreaming,
      Is this burning an eternal flame?

      Say my name,
      Sun shines through the rain...
      A whole life so lonely,
      And then you come and ease the pain.
      I don't want to lose this feeling..."

November 10, 2002 10:44 PM
      I wonder if this is how the Lord feels when we go chasin' after other things...the feelin' of this immense sadness...conversely...i wonder if the Lord also feels the same joy i feel when one's existence is acknowledged...even if itz only for the briefest moment...
      I would be looking forward to tomorrow...considerin' itz a day off from school...which means no classes and i get to sleep in...but then i get to thinkin' about wat imma gonna be doin' tomorrow...and then i get depressed...cuz i was plannin' on trying to forget by playing basketball all day...but the RSF's gonna be closed...which means i'll be sitting alone in my room or in the SC studying on a holiday...

     "Nights are lonely,
      Days are so sad..."

November 7, 2002 10:55 PM
      Itz annoying when someone else leaves their clothes in two washing machines and doesn't move 'em...especially if there are only three functional washing machines...cuz then i dun get to use two machines at the same time to wash my clothes...but yea...itz been rainin' today...

     "It kinda feels like I'm drownin' in the Lord's pain
      Until the sun comes out and shines again, smile
      Gimme reason to keep believin' that everything ain'tis mean and
      I kiss the clouds on the rainy days
      And smile for you when the skies are gray
      Baby cuz I'm a teardrop away from cryin'
      And a few shots away from dyin'
      Dear Lord would you shower my pain
      Let it rain, let it rain on me
      While I cherish the air I breathe..."

November 6, 2002 (Forgot the Time) PM
      Stupid stupid stupid cold...my right nostril's all stuffed up...so like im only breathing through one...cuz like we only got two nostrils and 2-1=1...u kno?...now itz my turn to be the cause of the rapid depletion of the Amazon rain-forest...i wonder how many flying squirrels crashed and died 'cuz they thought they would land on a tree...except the tree wasn't there...cuz it was cut down to make tissue paper for me to sneeze my snot in...ain't that jus' a pretty thought...haha...yea...i kno...i am demented...hehe...

November 4, 2002 11:10 PM
      *Sigh*...itz not like i have any right to be envious...especially since over here itz so one-sided...and besides...wat claims do i have?...exactly...i have nuttin'...sheesh...but still...how can one not help turning purple?...this is the part where i wax pseudo-poetic...What havoc dost the purple-tinged bite of jealousy wreak on my poor soul...

October 31, 2002 10:12 PM
      Heck yea...i feel a sense of accomplishment in having done so much new work on my website...u guyz gotta check it out...dang...that update box took so long to write...hehe...gosh...now in the second round of mid-terms...two down...one more to go...plus a small paper...plus a nutrisci thingy...ah wells...jus' hope i do enuff studyin' before monday...and dang...the weather's cold...

October 24, 2002 12:30 AM
      F*** it all...thought i had left all this behind...yet here i am...once again...forced to walk down the same road...history repeats itself...like a broken record... stuck in the same phase...a different situation...yet uncannily similar to the old...still the odd-man out...still playin' the same role...once again...i am the 5th wheel...
      Wat do i do?...do i play it out again?...or do i jus' block it off rite here rite now?...to be another sob story or to be cold granite stone?...it's still so early...but down the road...will it just end the same as last time...in one last cry?...
      All this is so f***ing depressing...wat is wrong wit me?...it's not like i wanna feel the way i do...why can't i jus' have a simple life?...f***ing a...