Sometimes i dun feel like updating...i dunnos way...must be the inertia...or the fact that i dun feel it in my gut to write...but im writing right now b/c i have nothing better to do...since i went to class to take a quiz that was supposed to last for an hour...turns out i finished in like 15 minutes...and now im bored waiting for my next class which is in an hour...which totally blows...i dunnos if i should even go to my next discussion...
And my friends think im mentally deranged...even more so now...they dun understand how i can be complacent with a particular current state of affairs...but then again...i am an odd one...
F*ck it...
(And no, this has nothing to do with anything you guys think you know about)
Either it's the time of month for my psychological/emotional cycle...or else i have good intuition that the niceness of the past couple weeks is not going to continue on into the semester...the whole matter is jus' weighing down on me...i wouldn't be quick to dismiss it as one of the potential reasons why i feel like cruddiness right now, in addition to the reason of sleep deprivation experienced over the weekend...
Seriously...what am i doing? I'm like a little kid playing with fire...one day i will seriously get burned again and there will even more scar tissue...
I have identified three major personal problems in this arena of discussion. I am 1)way too possessive/jealous, 2)too clingy, and 3)lack social confidence...all three of which can definately sink me and drop me out of the competition...
And for the weekend...i knew i set my expectations way too high...i think i even called it the friday before i went up...i suck...
My fake portfolio is in the hole...so sucky...upside is that it's fake...the losses are mainly driven by losses in the energy sector...bah...OPEC decided to keep output at current levels, thereby driving down the price of crude in the market...well...at least people who drive can pay a little less for gas now...
And i'm sitting in a forum while next door the managing director of the International Monetary Fund is giving a speech...I was trying to sleep in the undergraduate lounge...but the metal detector kept going off as they were letting people into the auditorium...so many people were lined up...and there are still people in the overflow section in this forum...if i was more mature...i prolly would be interested in what Rodrigo de Rato y Figaredo had to say...but since im only a wet-behind the years undergrad...i don't really give a fig, even if i should...i find it more important to be blabbing away on this blog...
First day of the second month. Progress report analysis for this semester: I need to go to bed earlier. Seems to be the same story throughout the past four years.
I've actually done quite a lot this semester already. Two consulting case seminars under my belt. Hopefully that'll open up the semester so I won't be occupied that much during the latter weeks.
Yay...Tahoe for the weekend! =) The company will be fantastic!
And still...so smitten...