Missed our flight to soCal last night...so annoying...i underestimated the time necessary to get to Oakland...actually, I estimated very well...i only forgot to factor in the extra 30 minutes that airlines require if you also need to check baggage...
So...we ended up flying out this morning...pretty much had to wake up around 4:30 AM and get to the airport by 5:30 to standby...good thing many people apparently oversleep or something, because the airline counter people had said the 6:35 AM flight was already booked full to the hilt...but yes...i am now writing this from soCal...really relieved that I didn't have to wait too long...
And so...flying out tomorrow...to the Bahamas...actually to Florida first...where we'll board a cruise ship that'll take us to the Bahamas...i hope i dun get disappointed...tryin' not to hype it up for myself to reduce any possible cognitive dissonance...oooh...yes...i learn big words in Berkeley...
Maybe i should start cutting the ropes...I really have no legitimate right to be in their world with my current state of being...it's a world i really shouldn't be in...in which i really dun belong...if this was a movie...i would be the character that the movie-watching-me would pity or even despise for putting himself in a situation like that...yet i still want to remain...clinging even to the crumbs that fall from the table...
Can i really deal tho? I have tunnel-vision when it comes to matters like these...living only for the present's sake of enjoyment...tho fully aware that the future will still come...yet still too overly immersed in wishful thinkin'...hoping for the odd chance that the future that most likely will occur will somehow actually unfold in along a different path...
Yay...i jus' won $8 in class...i love business classes...we even make money by attending lecture...
I watched "She's the Man" by myself yesterday...very funny movie...i like these romantic comedies that are loose modern adaptations of Shakespeare's plays...this one was influenced by Twelfth Night. Very amusing. And yes, I went by myself...if i wanna watch a movie, company is nice...but the main event is the movie...so i have no qualms seeing one by myself...
I've handpicked my song of the month for May ahead of time...i think it's quite fitting...S Club 7's "Never Had a Dream Come True"...
"Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you......"
I keep falling asleep in 80% of my classes. I can't help but feel like I'm wasting my college education. I should bring a tape recorder to class or something, or get my personal blacklightning assistant for free...
I-bankers are bad influences...hehehe...spending so much time with them causes me to adopt their sleeping patterns...which means...no sleep...
I need to optimize my website for Firefox...but that'll take time...so prolly won't happen until I guess spring break?
So yay...case comp is over...no more all nighters...those things are killer...fun but killer...oh...and only fun up to the point when everyone passes out...after that...it jus' gets lonely sitting there trying to create slides...altho our final presentation slides actually are very nice looking...very pleasing to the eye...yay team!
Hmmm...sooo tired.
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..." -Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities
This semester is a just like the above...at the same time it's my best semester ever in certain respects...and yet also the one with the most water under the bridge...
I'm really enjoying myself this semester, enjoying the many friendships I've happened upon, enjoying the time I'm spending with people...yet at the same time...my academic rigor is waning...academically speaking, I feel lax...even tho I've taken more extracurricular work (read: consulting case presentations) on top of a 5 class load, which was done despite my needing only 1 unit more to graduate...
The best part of my semester, though, seems so temporary and transient when i take a step back and think of it in terms of the overall picture...definately i am enthralled in the moments, yet nothing really can come of it...i only have approximately two more months left of time to enjoy the company...and at the end of that...what will come from those particular highlights but the hollow feeling that occurs when something is forceably removed/wrenched away...leaving only a handful of memories...
And I'm not even gonna go into discussing the water under the bridge...jus' find it interesting how so many concepts one was indoctrinated with as a child turns out to be tenous and full of holes upon closer scrutiny...a house of cards merely waiting for the next slight breeze before it tumbles down...so many things a sham and so many things a mere front...the living of a pretense, of a lie...disappointing and saddening...and then i realize how naive i often am...
I really really don't want the semester to end...I don't want my undergraduate years to end...but inevitably...it will...